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wild_terrain) wrote2008-06-04 11:54 am
DUSK VS DAWN
REFLECTIONS ON THE ECHO SERIES…
Echo of Dusk
A story about faith, separation, global conflicts and unwavering love.
HOW IT STARTED…
High school stress!!! Haha
For one of my subjects we were learning about the wars. We learnt so many horrific details and facts that it really sunk into my subconscious.
One afternoon, I fell asleep studying on my couch and woke up with the basics of the fic. It all came to be from my subconscious. It was so weird!
So when I had breaks from study I’d think about it more. I never dared to write it for public eyes though. Another JaeHo writer, unbeknownst to her, convinced me to post it up. I realised that with my busy schedule, the only way I’d ever finish writing it would be if I had actual readers making me feel guilty for not updating LOL!
So in December 2007, I posted it. ^_^
THE ORIGINAL PLOT.
As always, one thing is planned and completely morphs into something entirely different. Scarily enough, the original plot was much darker. JaeJoong was supposed to be so traumatized that no one could go near him without him panicking and screaming out - not even Yunho. He wasn’t supposed to even acknowledge that he knew Yunho was there. It was supposed to take Jae many days and weeks before he could allow even Yunho near him.
WOW heavy, much! I completely underestimated Jae’s strength in those first drafts. Even though someone going through that situation could EASILY fall into that delirious mind-frame and it wouldn’t be viewed as WEAK but just INEVITABLE… I wanted to see if having a loyal lover could change that. So I let Jae’s true inner strength become unleashed and pull him through the trauma on his own. Although Yunho and Hangeng helped him out a lot, in the end it was really JaeJoong’s strength that did it. So proud of you, boy!
AND THEN…in the post-war section, Yunho was supposed to be hit by a delayed depression from Jae’s assault and have nightmares about his lovers POW experiences.
We want happy JaeHo!! In fact, the only thing that has remained the same in my sequel plans is Junsu and Yoochun's appearance hehehe.
THE THEMES OF DUSK.
Heroism
In times of vulnerability everyone needs a hero. Only sometimes people only acknowledge the stereotype of a hero. Handsome, courageous, bold, strong…
On the surface it really doesn’t look like JaeJoong would be classified as a hero. He fought a bit in the war and then was captured by the enemy for many months… what’s so heroic about that, right? Everything. He survived through that pain and humiliation – does this not make him strong? He saved Yunho from drowning even at the expense of both their lives and even though no one else saw it, does this not make him courageous? The night they broke up for the first time down by the river JaeJoong spent the night lying with Yunho despite his intimacy fears so that Yunho wouldn’t feel lonely – was that not selfless?
Eternal love
It is so hard to feel this sort of love. We live in paranoia that our lovers do not feel the same amount of love as we do for them. But as we experience the hard times it is soon revealed to us who our true friends and lovers really are.
THE TITLE.
This first section of Echo of Dusk was always going to be the dark aspect of the fic. I thought it was always fitting for the title to contain ‘DUSK’ in it. After all, dusk is 'the time of day when the light is dim' and 'tending to darkness'.
In one phrase I’d summarise Echo of Dusk as the destructive path of the fic. So many things were destroyed (or almost destroyed) – YunJae’s relationship for one, JaeJoong’s general innocence and trust before the assault, etc etc. There were a lot of dark times constantly threating their relationship but they managed to pull through.
Anticipating the sequel:
Echo of Dawn:
A story about discrimination, hidden love, loyalty and jealousy.
TITLE!!
Why change the title from ‘dusk’ to ‘dawn?’
In this healing arc of the fic, I want JaeHo to come full circle – they have made it past dusk, endured the darkness of night, and now they are starting to glimpse the light again as morning is finally there for them.
So, I thought ‘DAWN’ was the most fitting word as it refers to ‘the return of the light in the morning’ or ‘the initial stage of a developmental process.’ (developmental process of course refers to JaeJoong trying to heal his intimacy fears and Yunho trying to heal his insecurities as well.)
CAN I GIVE YOU ANY HINTS?
Can I? Well technically yes. Should I? Technically no. HAHAHA!
But if you have questions which aren’t going to give away major spoilers, I can easily answer them with a yes or no. ^^
It'll of course be set in JaeJoong's hometown where the 'prologue' took place. Now that they have both finished their war duties they'll be returning back to their old lives...with one teeny difference...THEY ARE ACTUALLY LOVERS THIS TIME! hahaha. So Yunho'll be the sexy lawyer, Jae the yummy chef... (Just imagine the fun I could cook up!...yes, you can't run from my lame pun humour.)
CAN YOU HAVE A SAY?
Sure. I’m open to any suggestions you may have.
They can be little things like ‘I wanna know what JaeJoong’s family is like’ or ‘I wanna see JaeJoong make love to Yunho on the washing machine!’ hahahah! I’m always open to new propositions. ^_^
WHEN WILL I START POSTING IT?
Okay time to stop talking.
I hope to see you all again soon! ^_____^
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Firstly, when reading the first chapters, I always kept wonder that "Oh man, how can this girl know all of those kinds of weapons so well??? Is she a...well, policewoman or a soldier, ehhh??? O___o" Now, I supposed that you have learnt it from your History class, right??? *hehe...I suddenly remember the end of last year when I had a super hard time to deal with the crazy guns, too T__T*
Ahhhhhhhhh~ DO YOU KNOW THAT I FEEL EXTREMELY RELIEVED THAT YOU HAD DECIDED TO CHANGE YOUR ORIGINAL PLOT IN THE END, GIRL? Huhuhuhuhuhu...I don't think I can stand all of those possible tragedies which may have hunted me 'wholeheartedly' every nights. Thanks gos that you love YunJae too much to let them suffer like that...phewww...
Besides, although the original plot also sounded intriguing, I honestly love your changes more because it made the most beautiful idea in the story, Jaejoong's courage as well as his aspiration for life and love, become totally outstanding. Yes, I badly love the fact that as well as *nod.......keep nodding, how could Yunho remain weak when his lover had been that courageous ^O^*
Well, I totally agree with you on your opinion of Heroism. Yeah, Yunho was obviously a hero but I love a heroic Jaejoong more, for this image was far fresher and more creative. Moreover, I myself feel that a humiliated honour and a tainted beauty is much more wretched and horrifying than a death. If Jaejoong had not been brave enough, he would have chosen to commit suicide already. And as you said, he was so selfish and strong, too. Not many people in his shoes could be like that. He was definitely the most admirable guy ever *Ahhhh~ how am I in love with Jaejoongie a lot more than my Yunnie now...wahwahhh =((=((=((*
Dawn, dawn??? Wahhh, it must be more hopeful. But oh oh~ who would be the one jealous then? Would Yunnie jealous of...well, Minwoo??? lol...Jae was a chef so I think they would prefer...ahem, a cooker than a washing machine. It must be dead hottttt~ *Oh my, I'm crazy XDDD*
Whatever kinds of story you intend to write, I still love it because I love the way you express their feeling. So, yeahhh, be a good girl, hunnie~~~ Update something soon, neh ^___<
Love u~ Love u~ Love u~
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Omo! There is a ghost living in the computer! I replied to this and then nothing showed O_O. *spanks the phantom of the internet*
Owww my brain hurts T_T. Attempt two.
BWAHAHA! Police woman!! BWAHAHHAHAHA.
Yeh in history class we learnt the basics of what sort of weapons they used but for the specifics I had to do some further research.
Actually, what was kinda cool was several months ago when I visited the war memorial a few hours away from my house and saw the real deal. I think it was a BAR rifle or something *really bad memory*. I hate war, violence, weaponry etc, but it was still cool being able to properly visualise what 'Yunho' would have been carrying ;).
Ackkk, I share the anguish my lovey. I still can't re-read that original plan without turning visibly depressed. What kinda evil, sadistic mood was I in that day?! *cringes*
But even if for some crazy reason I had decided to stick with the original plot I would never have posted it to LJ. ^^;;
I honestly love your changes more because it made the most beautiful idea in the story, Jaejoong's courage as well as his aspiration for life and love, become totally outstanding
Awww, thanksies! I love that part about it too! JaeJoongie, you are such a catch! *purrs* lol
Moreover, I myself feel that a humiliated honour and a tainted beauty is much more wretched and horrifying than a death
Awwwwwww!
Ahhhh~ how am I in love with Jaejoongie a lot more than my Yunnie now...wahwahh
XD, it means that you aren't biased. Kekeke~
Jae was a chef so I think they would prefer...ahem, a cooker than a washing machine. It must be dead hottttt~
LOLS!! I was thinking the same sort of thing as you. "Wouldn't they end up in hospital afterwards with numerous scorch mark wounds in....highly suspicious places?" HAHA
Nawwww, you are so sweet, thanks!!
<3 you, <3 you, <3 you 2. ^_____^
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