The Beacon; My Siren - Chap 23 (Part ONE)

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Title: The Beacon; My Siren
Author: wild_terrain (ie. fi_chan)
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Chapter: [23 / ?]
Rating: MA15+
Genre: AU [FLANGST, mystery, spirituality, romance]
Summary: Philophobia… The fear of falling in love or being in love. I didn’t know such a thing existed until I met him… Kim JaeJoong was my age—a youthful 25 years—and the owner of a popular café, yet he was already known around town as the mysterious hermit who had chosen to completely withdraw from the world. How on earth could someone so young be afraid of loving others to the point of secluding themselves from all human beings? What was he afraid of? What was he hiding? I just didn’t understand it. And by that stage, the need to understand it was all I could think about... In fact, he was all I could think about…

Jung Yunho… For all of my life I had grown up away from the limelight. I couldn’t stand being noticed by anybody, and for a long time I thankfully never was. But then you came and suddenly you were everywhere – waving to me as I swept the café after closing, saying hello to me as you cycled past the bench I was sitting on, helping me carry my groceries inside whilst talking non-stop to me as if we were actually friends… Why are you always around making my heart thump erratically? Why do you even care? The more you try to explore this town, the more I need to step up and protect you from your own curiosity, because I know It is out there and I know It wants to harm you…

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A/N: Sorry for the long wait, guys. Both me and my beta got bogged down with some real life stress. For me, you can blame uni and the crazy amount of workload they've tried to drown me in that almost sent me through a quarter life crisis of sorts. You know those days, I'm sure. Pretty sucky.

BY THE WAY, this update is only half of the chapter. This part by itself is already 20 pages long, so you can understand why I'm updating this part separately. I'll update Part Two when I finish writing it....only got a few more scenes to go with that. Hopefully it will be worth the wait. ^^

The taste and feel of JaeJoong when we finally got to bed was heavenly. After spending embarrassingly large periods of time at dinner drifting off into fantasy worlds, the taste of the real thing was like a special gift.

It hadn’t been long at all since we’d slid under the sheets and pulled the covers up over us. I’d completely ruined the perfect, neat bedcover as I’d pushed it back out of the way to scoop JaeJoong into my arms. For the early months of winter, it was a rather mild night, so I didn’t feel cold at all with my arms wrapped around JaeJoong over the top of the bedcover.

Tonight a snuggle didn’t just mean a sleepy, tame hug. It had perhaps started out that way for maybe half a minute, but it hadn’t taken long at all for my lips to seek out JaeJoong’s warm skin. His cheeks had been so warm and plump beneath my lips. I could barely stop kissing them. I really loved that JaeJoong wasn’t just skin and bone. His cheeks were like a warm, soft pillow beneath my lips—especially when he smiled and they plumped up even more.

When kissing his face, it was hard not to reach out and touch his hair as well. It was like the icing on top of a cake, the bolognaise sauce on the spaghetti. It was so silky beneath my fingers. I loved roughing it up a bit, delving deep into it until it swum over my hand. Sometimes when I played with it the right way and my fingertips brushed against his scalp lightly, he would even purr out.

How could this gorgeous creature have never been touched before? Not even in an innocent way? People were stupid. And blinded by unnecessary stigma. They all had had their chance, but it was too late now—he was mine.

Playing with his dark strands some more, I moved to kiss the best place of all.

His lips were just as soft as the rest of him, although perhaps not the smoothest—the wind and cold weather had chapped both of our lips. Mind you, that didn’t jeopardize the joy of kissing tonight in the slightest. The intensity only grew, and moan after moan tumbled out. His minty taste really got to me then. My body slid over him completely, my legs wrapping around his to keep him chained to me. The deeper I delved into his mouth, the closer the rest of my body tried to get to his.

And he was reciprocating. His soft moans that spoke volumes filled my ears; his warm palms cupped my jaw and rested over my neck. Heck, even his legs were wrapped around mine as well until I couldn’t quite feel where my legs ended and his began.

I had to admit that some wacky thoughts did flutter across my mind that night—thoughts on what Junsu and Eunbi might have been doing at the same time. The answer was hardly a difficult one to predict. It was late at night and they were here together on a mini holiday in a beautiful town. Of course they’d be doing similar things in their own makeshift bedroom.

I almost smiled at the thought. It was as if our little double date had extended beyond dinner into bed. Well, separate beds in separate places, of course. An orgy of sorts would definitely be taking it too far! But it was still pretty cool knowing that the four of us were all doing naughty stuff.

JaeJoong’s thumb slid across my cheek in one smooth stroke and my body shivered joyfully at the touch. It was a shiver that triggered a break in contact though. Our lips slowly slid together in one last gentle sucking motion, before we both reluctantly pulled away to regain our breath.

As if the oxygen JaeJoong was breathing contained sobering chemicals, he didn’t move forward again to meet me back into another kiss. Instead, he lay still on the pillow with his eyes closed. Only his irregular breathing hinted of the sensual experiences we’d just had.

“You’re…” I leant closer to hear him better. “You’re so dangerous…”

“Me?” I breathed back. What the heck was he talking about?

“Yes…”

“Okay… Why?”

“Because…” His eyes were still closed. “When I’m with you, I forget that bad things exist.”

“Isn’t… Isn’t that a good thing?”

“No. Not really.”

I stared down at him, my confusion deepening, but he wouldn’t say anything more on the matter. I guess it was up to me again…

“But it is a good thing. Isn’t it kind of pointless and unhealthy to always think about the bad things? If we can’t change them, if they are out of our control, it only hurts us to get stuck thinking about them in a vicious loop. If being with my partner, if being with someone I trust and adore can take away those thoughts for a little while, then I think that’s a blessing. It’s like medicine for the mind. A natural, costless drug that helps you feel better. Call me stupid for depending on something like that, but I think it’s important.

“If someone is lucky enough to find someone they trust who can take away the painful aspects of the world one layer at a time, it shouldn’t be taken for granted. It’s a good thing. A real blessing, yeh?”

I’d meant every word I’d said, and felt it with my whole being. But still it seemed JaeJoong wasn’t completely convinced.

“Of course it shouldn’t be taken for granted,” he said. “But at the same time, it shouldn’t be overused.”

“Why?”

“Because! There is no point hiding behind a set of rose-colored glasses. It’s too risky to live like that. The bad things never really go away. By denying their existence, you give the bad things more power. They can sneak up on you that way and hit you with even more shock and intensity, like the wolf trying to eat Little Red Riding Hood. ”

How come he’d heard of the ‘Little Red Riding Hood’ fairytale but not ‘Cinderella?’ No, I couldn’t get distracted. Focus, Yunho.

“Nothing that means anything lasts forever”, he continued. “You can enjoy things up until a point, but there’s always a time when you need to just bite the bullet and see things for how they really are.”

“Of course you need to be aware that bad things exist,” I said. “Forcing yourself to be clueless and deliberately burying your head in the sand is just stupid. But letting the bad things take over your mind until they become an unhealthy obsession, eating away at you and any happy thought you allow yourself to have, is just as stupid!”

I probably shouldn’t have let myself put so much emphasis on the word that indirectly insulted my boyfriend, but it seemed my frustration was starting to get the better of me. How could it not when I knew the implication of JaeJoong’s words and attitude—that he didn’t want to really be with me because I’d end up leaving him or dying.

“You give the bad things more power if you constantly think about them and let them feed on your awareness. If something like that stops you from living your life then it has the power—not you! How can you not see that, JaeJoong? It’s totally manipulating you whilst you’re under a false sense of security! Contrary to your belief, you’re the one giving it power!

“ You shouldn’t let that fear of the unknown win. You shouldn’t let that risk of being happy with someone when it could all go pear-shaped stop you from wanting to be around them. Because that isn’t living. That’s hiding under your bed from life. That kind of lonely existence,” I shook my head vehemently, “I wouldn’t want it for even a second. Even if it meant I was safe.

”Being safe is one thing. Being lonely is another. Loneliness can eat you up until all you feel is pain. What good is being safe if you’re so unhappy, you can barely breathe?” I could barely breathe even thinking about such an awful existence. How could JaeJoong have done that to himself and not see the damage it could cause? The damage it had already done to him…

I rolled off him and onto my back. I had to take a timeout to just sit and breathe before I ended up saying something that could really hurt JaeJoong. The things in my mind that were going unsaid were unfortunately the truth—or at least, what I perceived to be the truth. The truth could hurt though. Hurting JaeJoong anymore than I might have already done so tonight would achieve nothing.

Silence won over both of us for a while. It felt tense, but even so, I would never want to take back the things I had wanted to say to him for so long. Because sometimes you had to be cruel to be kind. Sometimes, if you were dealing with someone as stubborn and mislead as JaeJoong, it was the only option. You couldn’t just give a light tap on the cheek—you had to give a decent slap. Not so hard that the force would turn a person’s head to the side and leave red imprints burning over the skin, but hard enough for it to be felt. Which is probably why I said the next line when I normally wouldn’t have dared to.

“Everyone dies, JaeJoong. Everyone.”

My words hung heavy in the air. I knew it wasn’t the smartest idea to tell someone so afraid of death that everybody was all going to die, but the time for sensitivity and tact was long gone. He needed to hear these things, and for that reason only could I forgive myself for being insensitive to his phobia.

“Anyone can die at any time. That is the whole point of life, the inevitable end. It’s something that you can’t control nor stop. When your time is up, it’s up. But that doesn’t mean that knowing that should prevent you from enjoying life while you can. Too many good people die in this world. And so for them, in their honor, we need to live.”

I wondered if JaeJoong realized I was mostly referring to the family members he had watched die in front of him. JaeJoong’s story had gotten to me, it really did. I couldn’t imagine having to watch the people I loved and felt secure with all leave the world they deserved to continue living in. JaeJoong’s family had all died too young—save for his somewhat adopted grandparents. I’m sure all of JaeJoong’s family would be hurting to see their one last link to life suffering so badly until he wasn’t even really living at all.

“Bad things happen all the time,” I spoke more softly. “The smallest thing can put us in danger. But if our time isn’t meant to be up, we’ll survive it. I’m living proof of that. I’ve probably almost died so many times. A lot of those times were when I was still a kid, before I even had the brain capacity and maturity to recognize that what I was doing was dangerous. I have scars all over my body—which you have seen—those prove that. I’ve been to hospital a crazy amount of times. And for each of those times that landed me there, I could have so easily died. Like your brother… But I didn’t, because I wasn’t meant to die then. I don’t know why, I just know that it’s so. Not all immediate danger equates to death. Risks are part of life. And that goes for taking a risk whilst airborne during a skydive, or taking a risk on the ground, giving your heart to someone.

”Growing close to someone is hard, because it makes you vulnerable. But nothing worth having is easy to get. That’s why risks are important in life. Even though it takes a lot of courage to take them, without them there is no progress. Nothing changes. And things always need to change. Things can never just stay the same, because if they do, you’re flat lining.”

“That may be so…” JaeJoong quietly spoke, “but I still think that there is no point taking risks if you know the end will be bad. Because that isn’t taking a risk, that’s just stupidly setting yourself up for disaster.”

“No one can ever really know something for sure, JaeJoong! So no, that isn’t true. You were in quite the funk when I met you. You didn’t really want to talk to me at all. Isn’t that right?”

“…I guess?”

“Yes. And you probably were thinking that there was ‘no point’ in talking to me. If you live life according to the policy you just told me, then basically you assumed that talking with me would be fruitless and setting yourself up for disaster. But it went in the opposite direction than your cynicism predicted, didn’t it? I stayed around and, God forbid, made you laugh occasionally. We’re pretty much together right now. A couple. If that’s not a good risk paid off then I don’t know what is.”

He fell silent. Of course—he knew I was right.

“That’s an example of a small risk paying off, maybe…” Small risk?! Was he trying to imply that what we had together was small?! But before I could splutter in outrage, he continued on. “Long term, it’s a bad risk. I’ve known it for a while, but haven’t been able to say anything.

“You know, during all your talk about death and how people only die when they are supposed to”—he propped himself up on his elbow and the bitterness in his words made me shrink back. Had I offended him in some way? Did he think I had implied that his family had deserved to die young? Because I hadn’t meant it in that way at all! How could he think I’d ever mean it in that way?—“you seem to forget that I’m not a normal person. Being with me is dangerous. My family died because of me and my brother. They weren’t meant to die. But we pissed off some pretty powerful deity and our parents were murdered because of it. People around me die because of me and not because of some goddamn life plan laid out by a God before birth!”

By the time he had even finished speaking, my uncertainty left and I had pushed myself up into a sitting position. I just couldn’t handle hearing such crap whilst lying in a position meant for relaxation.

“I beg to differ, JaeJoong!” I argued, deliberately making my voice louder. “I disagree completely, in fact. You, JaeJoong, are a normal person—just like everybody else.” I made sure to articulate those last few words slowly and succinctly.

“Hah. You have no idea, Yunho, so stop talking as if you do.”

His words were delivered as harshly as they ever could have been said. They curled my fingers inwards into fists. He was stubborn. He was really stubborn. And so damn obnoxious at that moment, it took everything I had in me not to grab a hold of his pajama collar and shake him roughly until he saw sense.

Frustration had given way to raw anger a long time ago. I wasn’t a violent person, but when I was pissed off I let my opponents hear just what was on my mind.

“Okay, sure! You’re the reincarnation of the Grim Reaper. I better stand back in case you wave your little stick at me,” I sneered. “Honestly, I’m not egotistical enough to believe that humans are the most superior creatures in existence. I do believe that there are powers out there that go way beyond human capabilities. God, Allah, Buddha, Zeus, call it whatever the hell you want. I think they exist. But a human who is in the epicenter of death, watching as the ripples of his very existence kill off anyone in close proximity, is something that I just can’t understand. But whatever. You clearly think something like that is possible so it would be a waste of my breath to even try and convince you otherwise. I don’t claim to know the sacred answers to life’s mysteries. We can agree to disagree on this one.

“But if you honestly want to spend the rest of your life hiding away in your café for no good reason, in poor imitation of an agoraphobic who can barely even step outside, then good for you, JaeJoong. If you want to barely talk to anyone in case you actually start to, God forbid, like them, then you just go and do that. You maintain your creepy and cold philophobic tendencies. You just go and slowly waste away in your puny little room, without anyone there to even notice. Because I’m telling you now, I won’t stick around to be apart of that. I refuse to be apart of that. Do you understand me, JaeJoong? Because this is getting ridiculous.”

It sounded so cold. So heartless. But it was anything but that.

I realized then that what I was feeling wasn’t fury. I wasn’t angry—I was scared.

“I really care about you, JaeJoong…” My words were barely a whisper. “I don’t want to see you do that… I don’t want to see you doing that to yourself. Because you are a beautiful person, and you deserve to live. To really live a life that means something.”

It was really hard to try and fight back the tears that were burning me. They were threatening to fall any minute and I didn’t want that to happen. I didn’t want to cry over JaeJoong’s life as if pain was all he was destined to face, as if it was set in stone. I refused to mourn over his life before it had really even begun to take shape. Mourning would mean I’d stop fighting for a higher quality of his life. I could never stop fighting for him. Even if it made me feel like shit—like now.

JaeJoong had been backed into a corner for so long. Any time he had dared to hope, he had ended up losing a piece of his heart. He was right—he was cursed. Only, right now, years after the damage had already been done, the only thing left cursing him was himself. He was doing it to himself and I couldn’t stand to watch it happen anymore.

“Get up.”

“Huh?”

“Get out of bed. We’re going for a walk.”

“A walk?” I stared in confusion at the man towering over me.

“A walk,” he confirmed, moving away to slip his sneakers on.

It was only when Yunho had started tying up his laces that I began to take him seriously. I slid off the bed slowly and began to unbutton my pajama shirt. I was almost halfway down when a hand stopped me. Looking up at Yunho, I saw him shake his head.

“Just grab a jacket.”

I stared at him again, my hand hovering over a button. “We’re going out in our pajamas?”

“Yep. And a jacket.”

Stunned, all I could as was, “Why?”

“Why not? It’s dark out. It doesn’t matter.”

“But what if someone still sees us?”

Yunho moved closer to me and I felt a tug on my pajama shirt as Yunho’s fingers slid the buttons I had undone back into place. “Who cares what other people think?” he spoke. “Since when have you worried about what people around town are thinking?”

I didn’t answer him. Just stood there letting him do up my shirt and pull a jacket over my shoulders.

We walked in silence out of the café. The usual ocean breeze tossed our hair around and ruffled our collars. Yunho led me towards the less inhabited area of town where the thick mass of trees blocked both the breeze out and decent patches of moonlight.

It was odd that Yunho wasn’t speaking at all—he’d certainly had a lot to say to me earlier. Well, if he didn’t want to talk to me right now, so be it. I was fine with silence. I certainly wasn’t going to offer up any words—not after the things he had said to me tonight. My head was still spinning, unable to reach out and grasp any decent, coherent thought. The only thing I did know was what I was feeling—miffed. He’d sure had the nerve to say some pretty harsh things to me. Not to mention presume a lot of things and spit them out like he was the king of the universe.

Just what exactly did he think a walk could do? Calm me down and wear my anger out like I was some little kid, easily manipulated?

I was the guardian of these lands! I’d dedicated my whole adolescent and adult life to protecting people from both myself and the island I grew up on. I knew the secrets the land possessed better than anyone. I’d been in town for twenty years—twenty-five if you counted my childhood on the cursed island. Yunho’s little handful of months visiting town sporadically paled in comparison to my experience. I didn’t appreciate being lectured by a town visitor—even if he happed to double as my boyfriend of sorts.

No, if we continued to walk in silence the whole night, it wouldn’t bother me at all.

My thoughts were interrupted by a loud bumping sound—the kind when someone tries to kick a tree trunk or a hard wall and then came a shriek.

It was hard to see what exactly was going on apart from a shape flying past me in a dark blur. I stepped aside in confusion and a small crack between the tree branches let enough moonlight in for me to glimpse the situation before me.

Yunho was down on the ground, partly on all fours, with his butt stuck up in the air. He’d tripped over a tree root hidden in the darkness and crashed down ungracefully. It was if the lands were punishing Yunho for being so sure of himself over their secrets.

For a few seconds, my heart sped up and I stepped towards him. I relaxed when I realized he was alright—just annoyed and embarrassed. I reached a hand out to help him up but it was weak and trembling. I was shaking so hard that when Yunho reached up to accept my hand, my grip was so unstable he may as well have been holding onto air. Clenching my eyes shut and pressing my lips together as hard as I could, I tried to will away my laughter.

A few squeaks escaped and I was caught.

“Are you laughing at me?” I heard Yunho accuse from the ground.

That did it. My insides exploded with a rush of energy and I doubled over, my loud laughter magnifying around us in the otherwise silent forested terrain. I should have been unnerved (or at least unsettled!) about the coincidence of Yunho’s fall occurring soon after I’d chastised him in my mind for the overconfidence he had about the local area, but no. Instead of hot flushes and trembling, came laughter. Lots of it.

In mock disgust, Yunho lifted himself up without my help and patted himself down. “Oh yeh, sure. It’s funny when friends get hurt. Doesn’t matter if it’s your boyfriend. In fact, that makes it even funnier. Laugh. That’s right. I’m okay, by the way. Thanks for asking.”

Oh god, he was too funny! I was gasping for air, unable to control my laughter as it increased.

He started walking again. “We’ll just erase the last few minutes from our minds, yeh? This never happened.”

“Oh, it happened, alright,” I gasped out. “And it’s staying in my memory forever in a glass case!”

“Mean!” He bumped his hips against mine and sent me stumbling over to my right.

With a grin, I righted myself and came back at him, bumping his hips in return until he stumbled to his left. Enjoying the childish human domino game, he came back at me, and even though I was prepared for it, the momentum still sent my body flying.

Unwilling to let him get the last laugh, I crashed him one last time—apparently too hard, for he tripped over another tree root and fell backwards onto his rear.

It was just perfect! I couldn’t have asked for anything better. The professional recreation staff member falling onto his butt twice in one night… It was so shameful. He was never going to live that one down as long as I was part of his life!

He pretended to cry like an injured toddler and on cue I swooped down beside him —still giggling—and pulled him into a tight hug. Ending his mock bawling, he chuckled alongside me. “I told you I was accident-prone.”

“How the heck did you ever get employed then?” I grinned.

“I didn’t have a meanypoo boyfriend trying to knock me over onto my butt.”

“Ahh.” I nodded. “Is that how?”

“Yes.” Despite the nice gesture of my hug, his cold fingers slipped under my loose pajama shirt and began tickling my sides. The freezing fingertips were painful enough let alone my ticklish skin being tortured.

With a few shrieks, my heels rocked backwards and gave way until I was on my backside as well. Even then his tickling didn’t stop and I fell further, my back hitting the grass and my feet stomping madly on either side of Yunho.

“Feeling sorry that you laughed at me now, aren’t ya?” He grinned down at me, hovering over me horizontally like a big canopy.

His hyperactive fingers slowed down, sinking down to rest over my waist. They’d finally warmed up and his palms heated up my skin pleasantly. When he slowly and gently stroked my skin backwards and forwards with his thumb, I had to close my eyes. It felt too nice.

I let out a soft, pleased breath and barely had time to inhale before warm lips pressed against mine. I melted into the gentle kiss, encouraging him not to ever stop.

“Why are you so loveable?” I heard him whisper against my lips. One of his hands slipped through my hair. I didn’t reply—just smiled.

With one last gentle peck, he pulled away from me and pushed himself back up. Moving a little further to his left, careful not to trip over anything else, he stood under one of the large trees. I scrambled up to my feet as well when I saw him gesture for me to join him.

It was dark where he stood—I could barely even make out his face even though he was standing next to me. As if reading my thoughts, he said, “It’s dark here, isn’t it? Perfect. I won’t need to blindfold you or anything.”

Blindfold?

“Hmm. Maybe you should close your eyes just for extra insurance.” He was thinking out loud and not making any sense. Much like the time I first met him and his words felt like a foreign language.

“Are your eyes closed?”

“No!”

“Close them.”

“Why do I have to do that?”

“Do you need a reason? Don’t you trust me?”

I hesitated. Of course I trusted him… I just hated having to do things that left me vulnerable when I didn’t even know what was going on. “I do, but…I don’t understand…”

“There’s this fun game we sometimes make the kids play when they are on their camping retreats. One kid is blindfolded to lose their sight, whilst their partner calls out instructions to guide them across an area of land. It’s to establish trust, but also to give people a feel of how tough it is for blind people who are only able to rely on four of their senses.

“I was thinking about doing that for fun, but after tripping over…” He started chuckling. “I don’t think you’d have that much faith in me leading you. It’s too dark tonight. The blind leading the blind. So, I thought maybe we could try out Hot ‘N Cold instead.”

“Hot and cold?”

“Mm. But you know what?” he continued to speak. “On second thoughts, don’t close your eyes—it’s dark enough here already. With the ground so uneven, there might be some face-planting going on if you are completely blinded.”

Okay, so my boyfriend had lost his mind after those two falls…

“Yunho, slow down. You’re making me feel like I don’t even know my own name anymore.”

“Oh, sorry. I’m rambling, aren’t I?”

“Yahuh.”

“Basically, I hide. You find me.”

That didn’t sound too good…

Before I could complain, Yunho disappeared from view. I was left standing by myself, feeling a little silly. I was in the middle of a mini forest in my pajamas. Not bizarre at all!

I didn’t have to wait long until I heard Yunho calling out to me from somewhere or other. “Ooh! I like this spot! I can see you pretty well.”

“Great…” I mumbled, taking a tentative step forward.

“Heehee! I see you!” he continued to taunt. The corners of my lips began to rise. He could be such a kid sometimes. His mother must be exhausted. “Joongie, you’re cold.”

“Huh? N-No, I’m fine.”

“No!” His laugh came from somewhere far away. “If where I am is hot, then you are cold.”

“It’s all the same temperature out here…” Using a nearby tree trunk as a railing, I slowly made my way towards where I supposed his new burst of laughter was coming from.

“You’re so literal, Joongie! It’s a way of giving clues. Hence the name of the game—Hot ‘N Cold. You’re still cold, by the way.”

Oh. This was a weird game.

“Yah, Jung Yunho, I don’t appreciate being told I’m cold.”

His laughter sounded out again and I grinned. It was so much easier to tell if I was getting closer to him when he laughed. He was so loud.

“Okay, you’re warm.”

“Thank you.”

More laughter. “I meant it as a clue.”

“I know,” I grinned. “But I’m using your crazy loud cackling as an indication of your whereabouts.”

“Oh! Intelligent!”

It was my turn to stop and throw my head back laughing. He’d sounded so impressed even though I’d turned the tables on him.

“Ooh, it’s getting so warm all of a sudden. I might need to take my jacket off, Joongie.”

“Please don’t.”

More laughter. He was so easy to set off. The problem was every time he laughed, I found him so cute and started laughing myself. It was hard to concentrate on my hearing when my amusement kept trying to take over and distract me.

“Am I getting warmer?” I slowed my pace down as the ground grew lumpy and uneven.

“Maybe.”

He definitely sounded closer. In the stillness of the night though, his voice seemed almost omnipresent at times so I couldn’t be sure.

“You look pretty tonight, Joongie.”

My cheeks heated up. “Stop trying to distract me!”

“I’m not!” he chuckled. “I’m just making an observation.”

“No, you’re showing off because you can see me wandering about like a lost person, but I can’t see one spec of you—” I stopped as I felt something hit me. It had been small and hard, like a round nut. Great. Just my luck. The tree I’d walked under had shed its nuts just as I happened to walk under it. Sometimes nature really liked to tease me.

I stepped away from the tree but stopped in my tracks again as another nut hit my forehead and bounced off. Unbelievable! Twice in one—oh. I narrowed my eyes, figuring it out. “Yah! When I find you, I’m going to smack you!”

A burst of laughter close by confirmed everything. He was like a naughty little kid! At times like this, it was hard to believe that he was twenty-five.

“It’s a clue!” he laughed out.

“Oh, sure,” I drawled back.

“It is! It means I’m somewhere where I have access to tree seeds.”

“We’re in the middle of a forest. Even the little bugs crawling up the tree trunks have access to that.”

“Yah, are you calling me a bug?”

He sounded really close by. I should have been able to determine where he was by now. This omnipresent voice projection trick he was doing was too good.

“Yes, you’re a bug. If I had any cookies on hand, I would have laid them out minutes ago so I could catch you nibbling on them…”

“Hey, I’m not that easily sold.”

“Oh, I think you are.”

In retaliation, another nut hit the top of my head. Either he had really impeccable aim like a baseball player, or… “Yah, are you in a tree somewhere?”

“Maybe.”

“You’re in a tree?!” I exploded, hands on my hips and head tilting upwards. Sure enough, a dark blob sat on a low branch in the tree to my left. So that’s why his voice had seemed everywhere at once! “Well, well. You really are a bug!”

“Are bugs this clever?” He sounded like he was pouting right about now.

“Fine, you’re not a bug, you’re a skunk.”

“A skunk?”

“You’re good with trees and your ego is leaving a nasty stench over here.”

“Hey!”

I grinned, feeling the rough bark of the tree trunk beneath my hands. How the heck did he get up there? My fingers found a hidden fork in the trunk. Lifting my foot up, I stuck it in and tried to pull myself up.

I didn’t know what had gotten into me—I never tried to climb trees. Even when I’d been a kid and played around with Damien, I’d been too small to be able to climb many of the giant trees in our backyard.

Holding onto one of the forked trunks for dear life, I could almost reach Yunho’s throne. I didn’t feel stable at all though. Time to resign myself to cling on like a koala for all of eternity…

Yunho’s dark blob moved around above me, and suddenly I could feel his warm breath on my forehead. Tilting my head up to look at him better, I felt the soft, gentle press of his lips against mine. My eyes slipped shut and I moved with him.

He pulled away, leaving me to kiss cold air. He was hiding somewhere behind the trunk. Frustrated, I swung my upper body over to the other side of the trunk I was clinging onto to look for him, and his warm lips crushed down onto mine again. It was like peek-a-boo but with a tree trunk—and I appreciated the small rewards for finding his face.

“What’s this for?” I asked quietly, once our slow kissing had ended.

“Just…because.” I think he was smiling.

“Okay…” As per usual, I felt myself smiling shyly, avoiding his gaze.

“Alrightio, my butt is numb. Climb back down, my little spider monkey.”

I did what I was told—rather gladly—and felt relief wash over me as my feet hit solid ground again. There was a loud thump beside me as Yunho jumped down from his branch, not even bothering to use the forked trunk as a ladder. He wiped the dirt and loose bits of bark from his pajamas and then hooked an arm around my waist.

“Yunho…” God, I hated the way I was practically purring. It wasn’t fair that two little kisses could hold so much power over my body.

“Hmm?”

“What was the point of all this?”

“The point?”

“Mm.”

“Of the game?”

“Mm. And the rest of it—the entire walk.”

“You don’t know the point of it?” He sounded shocked.

“N-No…” I felt a little stupid.

“My god! You really don’t know the point! The point is…”

I held my breath.

“…There is no point.”

I almost fell over onto my butt. Yunho’s impish chuckles boomed over my ear and I regained control over my body. “Yah! You made it sound like I was so dumb for not knowing!”

“C’est la vie, baby.”

“Oh, whatever!” I threw back, trying to hit his hips with mine again.

He only held me closer. “Joongie, not everything has to have a point.” A good portion of his earlier amusement had left his voice. Despite his child-like antics, the man really was twenty-five, and right now, showing it.

He began walking me back through the forest, searching for the moonlit areas we had started off in. “Sometimes there doesn’t have to be a point to everything. And sometimes not every risk has to have a bad ending.” His hand tightened on my hips. “You came outside in your PJs, you climbed a tree in the middle of the night to get to me. And here I am. Your risk paid off.”

I snorted. “I’d hardly call climbing a meter up a tree a risk.”

“Not all risks are huge.” I felt him shrug against me. “JaeJoongie, the problem with you is this: you became an adult at five. You missed out on a big part of childhood; an important part of childhood—the part when you learn about the simple things in life. There are simple things that balance out the hardships of adulthood. Everything has a balance—night and day, water and fire, tough times and simple times. Sometimes it feels like adulthood is only full of the tough times, but there are still the simplicities there, you just have to look harder until you find them. A gorgeous breeze. A pretty moon. A catchy song that makes you want to move around the room like an idiot as if no one else can see you... They are everywhere—you just forgot how to see them.”

I didn’t know what to say. Part of me wanted to insist that he was wrong, but mostly…I just wanted to cry.

Yunho grabbed my hand and started running towards a park. The only trees in view were clumped together at the perimeter of the land, leaving nothing much but grass and wide open spaces.

He ran with me in tow until he had reached the middle of the park, and then all of a sudden, pulled on my hand whilst turning around. The momentum sent me flying around in a circle. I would have fallen over and crashed to the ground if I hadn’t still been holding onto Yunho’s hand. The problem was he kept spinning us around in big circles without a chance for me to put the brakes on.

My footing began to slip the same time his did, and we both flew away from each other’s grasp in opposite directions.

Yunho let out a triumphant cry, but all I could do was scream—it felt like I was skiing down a giant slope with no grip whatsoever.

I fell hard onto my rear and sat there in the grass, stunned. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see Yunho still hurtling away, whooping for joy. He landed on his knees—a much more graceful end than mine.

He picked himself back up and stood, looking over at me with what I presumed was a grin. I might have smiled back if I still wasn’t reeling from dizziness.

He bounded over to me, beaming. “Wanna go again?”

“N-No!” I hurriedly said, but Yunho ignored me. I was yanked back onto my feet. “C’mon. It’s good ol’ harmless fun. We’ve gone back to our youth. We’re four year olds. It’s our duty to spin around and learn all about Newton’s laws of motion and gravity the hard way.”

Before I could even respond to that, he’d grabbed onto my hand and started half pulling me, half tossing me anti-clockwise again. I had no choice but to hold onto him tightly or fear face-planting at what felt like a hundred kilometers per hour.

The wind from our motion mixed with the breeze from the ocean tossed our hair around and lifted up the bottom of our pajama shirts. The sights before me were getting so blurred; I could hardly start to determine what was in front of me anymore. I was flying and falling all at once—and I was loving it.

Our hands slipped and we flew apart again. This time I couldn’t care less that I was falling and yelled out as loud as I pleased.

I rolled a few times across the grass, but I was too busy laughing to feel the slight pain. I lay on my back, staring up at the night sky. There were no stars and no more moon—only clouds. It looked like there was a chance of rain. I couldn’t care less.

“Yunho!” I called out, trying to get my breath back.

“Yeh?” he yelled back, sounding to be in a similar state.

“I want to be like you.”

“What?” he called back.

“I want to be like you!” I repeated, grinning up at the dark, ominous sky. “I wish I wasn’t afraid all the time. I want to be you!”

“No you don’t—my feet smell.”

I let the laugher burst out from my body and escape into the cold air. “But I do, I do. And your feet do not smell.”

I rolled over and pushed myself back up. Yunho was lying on his back as well about four meters away, and I ran to him without a second thought. Falling down onto my knees beside him, I swooped down and kissed him as hard as I could. “I want to be with you. And I want to be like you.”

He stared up at me for a moment, trying to comprehend everything. I guess my words had picked him up, then spun and flung him halfway across the park just like he’d done to me minutes ago.

“I don’t want you to be like me…” he slowly uttered, reaching a hand up to smoothen some of my hair away from my face. “I just want you to be happy.”

“I’m happy with you…” I softly murmured.

“Okay then,” he smiled gently up at me, tucking some of my fallen hair behind my ear. “I’ll try to make you happy again.”

I nodded, trying to swallow. “I trust you.”

He looked so happy at that moment. It was hard to believe that I could ever have such a profound effect on somebody else. But I’d made my boyfriend happier than I’d seen him in a while. I guess I wasn’t so completely useless after all…



\\\END OF FIRST HALF///
\\\TO BE CONTINUED IN PART TWO NEXT TIME///

A/N: Yupppp, sorry to cut it there, guys. I think an update of over 40 pages was too much to deliver, even for me! XD

I hope you all enjoyed the silly fluffiness (well, after the heavy discussion, at least lol!). Kiddy Yunho will continue for a tiny in the next part. God bless his innocent heart, lols! And of course, some physical progression, coming up as promised. ^_~

Love you lots. And lots. And some more. XD
<3

(*goes back to watching my newly hung government take days to try and determine a prime minister out of the incredibly close votes* It's like watching a nail biting FIFA match at 0-0 going for days and days. Not even Yunho's uber hotness in SMTOWN 2010 can take my frustration away for long... -_-;;)

Comments

[1stepcl0ser.livejournal.com]

i'm the first, wtf? O_O
can't read it right now, though, but i WILL later on XDD
awww, i'm excited <33

[1stepcl0ser.livejournal.com]

Oh my God, I LOVE this chapter SO MUCH!!!!
That's one of the best chapters, seriously. I loved their conversations. To be honest, I even was a bit shocked because of some of the thing that Yunho said .__. Though I could understand him.
At first I was a bit afraid that they would argue, but then Yunho fell LOL, I had to laugh so much. And that game was SO cute. I can imagine Yunho acting like a child <33

I had to laugh so much - I LOVE when Yunho is sarcastic XD
Like: How come he’d heard of the ‘Little Red Riding Hood’ fairytale but not ‘Cinderella?’

Best sentence ever: “Okay, sure! You’re the reincarnation of the Grim Reaper. I better stand back in case you wave your little stick at me"
LMAO!!!

“No you don’t—my feet smell.”
HAHAHA, oooh, Yunho <33

Well... The last few sentences were SO beautiful, I nearly had tears in my eyes, lol. Seriously!

Thank you SO much for such a great chapter! I can't wait for the second part!

[museelo.livejournal.com]

SPOT

[museelo.livejournal.com]

OMG ;___;
Fluff and, feelings, and arguments : perfect combo <33

Thank you so much for this chapter, I feel like reading again the moment they became a couple :3 <3

Thank you again for writing really long-er :3
Take care, see you !

[meheartyunho.livejournal.com]

I am hereeee

[r-1353.livejournal.com]

its been so long since i read this fic!
love d update bb~ ^^

[steorie.livejournal.com]

bahhhh, were is the promised smutttt?????? *pouts* 23 chappies and no touching. :( Only u can do this bb, since ur stories and great writing makie up for the lack of smut. lol (do i make sense here? XD)

The beginning really got me and i feared that JJ woudld kick Yun's ass any moment but guess he agress with Yunho in the end.

Both were sooo adorable and i love Yun for being able to make JJ laugh like that. :DDD I always have to laugha long when JJ laughs. Its so addicting. XD

im waiting now for THE chappie to come. LOL ~♥

Cookie?

[c0rin.livejournal.com]

Joongie is so ridiculously cute! Yunho is so much <3~

[rethzneworld.livejournal.com]

oh my~ :) jae still insecure but yunho force him to see the lights huh...

[brailleun.livejournal.com]

Oh my god I have been waiting for thiis /fails around&goes to read.

[irerd-taga.livejournal.com]

Yipes an update! Got to go read now!!!

[irerd-taga.livejournal.com]

For a minute there I thought Yunho was going to walk out of there and never coming back!!
But lo and behold, it turned out to be oh-so-fluffeh at the end!! I loved it! Yunho's playfulness and determination to show Jae the fun side of life while taking risks in such an ingenious way was, yeah, ingenious!! Lolz~~
And Jae's reaction at the end was heartening to see!

[supersonicjaz.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for updating <3
I have a policy which is 'never read a fic until it's complete' but I need to edit tha to say 'unless it's wild-terrain's'

But actually, I'm so excited about your statement in brackets. I forgot you were Aussie.
*vents*
I feel jipped that my first vote made a hung govt. Seriously!
I was glued to my seat last night waiting for the outcome (and trying to see if Mel was wearing a shirt underneath her jacket, on 7 xD) even though I knew they wouldn't be telling the outcome. Oh and trying to find out what exactly a hung parliament is. I wake up this morning and they're saying it'll take a week til it's decided or until the votes are counted >.>

Then, to add to the stress of last night, I'm on twitter CONSTANTLY checking to see if HoMin had come out on stage yet.
Twas a stressful night last night.

Oh but they were showing Trending Topics on channel 7 and both, JYJ, TVXQ, #2stages1TVXQ and SMConcert were trending. Which, lets face it, is the closest we're gonna get to seeing TVXQ on Aus free to air TV. I fangirled :PPP



(Hopefully I haven't freaked you out by my venting)

[wild-terrain.livejournal.com]

Kyaaaa, you are so sweet to me! *___*
New Best Friend! hahaha jk. XDDD

Omgosh, tell me about it!!! I've been spewing on twitter and fb non-stop since this morning. (What's your twitter! We can totally bitch together! Well, unless we go for opposite parties in which case that would be a tad awkward, LMMMAOOOO!! XD)

I was mostly watching the ABC coverage, and then a bit of channel 9. Didn't see much of 7 coz Koschi started annoying my parents LOL! Goddammmmit, I could have seen JYJ and HoMin twitter trends on my TV!! Damn you ABC for being too "cool" for twitter!! XDDD.

Okay yeh, that really sucks that this year is your first vote! I just scrapped in last time and was privelleged enough to vote John Howard out of his own seat! Yup, that was like one of the only times our electoral seat swung for Labour, and I felt so powerful LMAO!!! Then of course, Rudd turned out to be a lunatic and now Abbott, the Mad Monk, might have a chance to be PM. Then again, with this hung parliament, no party really has any power at all. Small favours! Coz honestly, I think both parties have pretty big faults. I just find Labour to be the lesser of the two evils this time. Apologies if you are more of a Liberal girl, and I have accidentally offended you and/or pissed you off. LMAO!!

But hey, one thing is for sure--we're a part of history now! ^^;;

Oooh lol! I was away with my parents without internet that day, so I didn't have that extra stress of looking for SMTOWN and A-Nation updates. I could just sit in front of the TV watching the slow changes in seat numbers whilst biting my nails right down! Of course, when I got home this morning to my internet again, my twitter was full of DBSK updates. Needless to say, I didn't get much uni h/w done today. Ehem. *angelic smile* XD

(LOL LOL, nope, I definitely wasn't freaked out. Things don't easily freak me out--unless it's Tony Abbott in budgie smugglers. LMAOOOOO!! Heehee, it feels so good to be able to make an Australian joke in this journal. >D *dumbass*)

Nice to talk to you, btw! XD
<3

[supersonicjaz.livejournal.com]

I'm typing on my phone so forgive the spelling mistakes.

Ma twitter is /boojaz FOLLOW MEHHHHH! I FEEL SO EFFING SPESH CAUSE 3 OF MY FAVE WRITERS ARE ON MY TWITTER!
Oh, are we friends on here?????

Just to clarify, I am a labor girl, feel free to bitch :P
Though, I did vote greens... I'm a mad advocate for gay marriage and boat people. Cause they're actually people and I'd like to see how abbot and gillard felt if they had to go back to a country they're fleeing from, to die from trying to get a better quality of life.

em.. As I said... Passionate. Hopefully I didn't offend you...

those budgie smugglers should be reported as a crime against humanity. Not even jae could pull them off! (though I wouldn't mind yunho pulling them off for jae *bricked*)

I actually wish my family went away for the election. It's like christmas in this family. We all gather around and speculate on the abc. So I try and be different and watch it on 7 cause its not so hardcore.

don't worry about your uni work, it can be done another day :ppppppppp

definitely envious of you voting out that asshole john howard, though. Sooooo jealous

My apologies if this makes no sense. Its currently 2:10 am sydney time and I really should be getting some sleep. My 19 y/o eyes can't handle being awake so late!

See you on twitter!

[doramaholic.livejournal.com]

yunho's such a sweet bf albeit his reluctance over physical intimacy. he better get over that soon so he'd become perfect already. LOL!
really adore every moment in this chapter esp their arguments. i thought jae would get really mad at yunho for what he said while they were making out. yunho's timing sucks.

[yunho1205.livejournal.com]

Awwwww!! That whole chapter was sooooooo awesome!!! It was most definitely worth the wait!!

I read the whole thing to my aunt over the phone!! Her computer died a few weeks ago, so I need to keep her updated! :)

It was so fun to read it with her and laugh at all the funny part together! Usually when I read alone silently, my laughter makes my kids think I'm insane! So this was great!!

The part where Yunho said that Jae was the "reincarnation of the Grim Reaper" it took us a few minutes to even calm down from the laughter! Even after I kept reading, my aunt was giggling every few seconds, I had to tell her "yah, let it all out, so I can continue!"

And the Hot & Cold game was hilarious!!!

Awwww!! This entry was so great!! It totally made my day!! Thank you! :)

[linhchipham.livejournal.com]

OMG ! You update. Spot for me

[linhchipham.livejournal.com]

This chap started with argument and end up with laughs. Only Yunho has that power. All I can say is Yunho is perfect for Jaejae. Love them so much. Thank you so much for hark work

[minniesaranghae.livejournal.com]

Waaaaah! *dies from all the fluffiness*

This was so adorable. (minus that little talk that they had, that was some deep stuff, yo!)
but omg, childish Yunho is the best thing in the world. and Jaejoongieee his childish side (which he really needs to start showing more) is even cuter!

“Alrightio, my butt is numb. Climb back down, my little spider monkey.” I literally thought of Twilight there, and face palmed when I did LOL.

ughhh you have no idea how much I love this storyyyy~ it's fluffy, angsty, romantic, dramatic and everything I looooove (well I'd prefer Yunjae without the angst but you have this special way to still make it so intriguing!) GAH! Anywho, can't wait for the next update, bb! ♥

[anael777.livejournal.com]

I so love this story!!
finally finally Jae starts to understand what Yunho is trying to do ^^
it might be weird but I saw them as 16-18 yearolds but now I'm seeing them as two full grown men being all pure and shy! this is even more precious *^^*
thank you for updating the story!! and please update moreeeee!!!! I think 40 pages update would be quite ok for all of us who are so anxiously waiting for your updates ^^'
*hugs*

[ohkuralover.livejournal.com]

OMGGGG I looooooove it!! i cant wait till ur next update!!

ur my fav. writer!! i simply love the emotions u put and all of it! love iiiit <3

thank you!!

[ch0cola.livejournal.com]

Oh.my.god... you just killed me... that was so UBERcute... can't even out my finger on it... omg...

Aaah... and guess what... I'm on holidays! My aweful exams are all over, enough time to enjoy YunJae-ness für like 8 weeks *__*
So I can't wait for the next part of the chapter *__*

I'd even love it if there was no physical progress made xD I mean... this chapter was THE CUTEST I have ever seen/read. seriously... you just made my... upcoming night xD
omg... I loved it *reteating herself*

aaaah.... hopw you're not too stressed with uni anymore... I know the feeling very well, you know. I've been a slave of my uni für the last 2 months! A real slave... no time for nothing... so take your time and update when you're done!° I love you! <3333

[sheilapiglet.livejournal.com]

yay!...this was worth the wait because of all it's fluffiness....I think we needed a break from all the angst and possibility of Jae being the grim reaper...lol....looking forward to part 2!=)

[flidi.livejournal.com]

Thanks again for another wonderful chapter.
I love this story and all of your writings. Your writing style is utterly awesome. I loved every word you put down here. I wait eagerly for the next chapter.

[0126.livejournal.com]

i love yunjae..i really love them a lot! gahh..they're so adorable in this chapter ('cept for the argument, which scared me a bit that they'll just walk away from each other ><). i'm glad they were able to talk it out, and jae didn't clam up again when yunho argued with him. i love everything on this chapter.

thank you again for your awesome writing!

[trieze0713.livejournal.com]

Now the waiting for part 2 is killing me T____T So good to know that they're both happy eventually hohoho :D thanks for updating!

[swallowtt.livejournal.com]

indeed, yunho is a large blob of hunk. XD j/k i luv this chappie. it's nice to see jae kissing yunho on his own and their laughter is priceless. the chappie isn't long to me, because i simply want more. :D i shall wait for ur update. hwaiting! <3

[zoevo.livejournal.com]

Lovely chapter!
Man, I really really love Yunho for everything he's said and done. Jaejoong is so lucky.
And I hope from now on Jae'll stop trying to push him away.

BTW, your updates always took me the longest time to read (of course, happily), which means the longest time to enjoy my YunJae world.
Thanks for this part.

[youinmyjumpsuit.livejournal.com]

what jaejoong has been saying the entire time can be really frustrating. i admire yunho's determination to make jaejoong feel that living his life isn't a bad thing at all. :D

[rurutia88.livejournal.com]

reading this when i have an exam the day after tomorrow...huhu..i'm dead!

[maxieminnie9.livejournal.com]

Yay for Jaejoong! And this Yunho is amazing for being able to move past his anger and bring himself outside without walking out on jaejoong or anything else. I really love the yunjae that you write =)

[shigai.livejournal.com]

buh baby TT

I read this yesterday night before going to sleep and I didn't comment because I was simply dead XD But buaaaah so pretty ;___; I loved this chapter so much!! I loved every single word Yunho said, I agree so much with all of it. And then the fluff was soooo pretty I was close to go all 'aawww' here (I was the only one awake, so I'm glad I didn't do it xD) I'm so so happy Jaejoong said those things at the end of the chapter! I'm proud of him : D

Awesome chapter again, it was so sweet and lovely and I can't wait to read more of it!! I'm looking forward to the physical progression ;P (remember, don't make Yunho act too much like a child, it can bring horrible pedophilic consecuences XDDDD)

<3 Great job, keep on like this!!

[jadyuu.livejournal.com]

OMG, Yunho is so awesome !
LOL
This chapter was deliciously fluffy. ~~<3
At first, I thought that Jaejoong was really stubborn, seriously, I couldn't believe it. everything was fine, Yunho was kissing him and then, their conversation was just so frustrating, I understand why Yunho was so angry at the beginning. Jaejoong doesn't have any confidence, he's afraid, of course, he lived a very difficult life. But know Yunho is here and that's what Yunho is trying to tell him. They are in love and Jaejoong is so afraid that he doesn't think about the future, however Yunho wants to be with him at any cost. I love his personality ! so honnest a reliable, Jaejoong is lucky ;)

But now, I'm doubting. Is the malediction true ? Or is jaejoong so afraid that he created everything ? But then, what about Yunh'os weird dreams ? I'm confused now xD And does Yunho believe that there is a malediction around Jaejoong ?

The passage at the end when they're playing is just sweet and intense. jaejoong is slowly learning how to live thanks to yunho. And Yunho si slowly accepting the fact that he wants to make love to jaejoong. xD

Thank youuu for this chapter ! It was great like always. I read it in the south of france, I'm sharing a room with my mother, and she asked me what was this story about LMAO.

Anyway, I'm waiting for the next chapter =D (and the second book of EODawn ;D)

[whiky.livejournal.com]

*sigh* I'm so so so late. -.-"
just nice cause I'm feeling bored and needed someone to talk some sense into me as well...
hehe and thoughts of yunho tripped over tree root and jaejoong holding back laughter ish so cute, I can't help smiling as well :)
thanks for the update~ waiting for 2nd part ^^
hwaiting ~~!!

[kiyazawa.livejournal.com]

goosshh..
jaejoong is still as stubborn as before when it come to the 'curse' thingy...
*sigh*
i do agree with yunho's lecture though, he need someone who could give him some other perspective about his life
he wouldnt live like that for the rest of his life, no?
he has a bright path if he want to come to the 'real' world, not just hiding in that place and not having a social life there...

anyway, the way yunho cooled jaejoong down is so cute,,,
hahahaha...
silly yunho.... (but i love him nonetheless)
:DDD

[hitomi2oo7.livejournal.com]

This story is pure L.O.V.E. <3<3<3
I love how they are closer and closer and I want them to be together forever *teary eye* <3<3<3
Please update soooon~ ^o^

[egbfly.livejournal.com]

omg.. that was so much fun.. the really silly adorable yunho.. stealing joongie from his solitude as much as he could..

[yozora-yume.livejournal.com]

aw im no longer upset at Yunho! he's so sweet and gosh Jaejoong's so lucky to have a man love him like that, though he deserves it for being the kind, extremely baby-like man who was deprived of happiness for a long time

[memoirofu.livejournal.com]

hi..this might be my first comment for you >.< i'm sorry, and i know my comment here seems pretty late, but i've read your Echo of Dusk and Echo of Dawn fics...they are amazing! for real!!

and i had no idea why i didn't read The Beacon, My Siren before, i just found out about this fic yesterday and i am currently hypnotized by the story..

okay, back to the point, the need of me to comment on this chapter is because i love this chapter so much since finally Yunho is getting real with Jaejoong's silliness, putting out harsh words for the stubborn Jaejoong, i support it so much..

other point is i always not quite enjoying this chapter...

for me, i was exactly understand what Yunho felt about the "crap" Jaejoong shown. so i was annoyed when suddenly, Yunho asked Jaejoong for a walk and played games while laughing or being adorkable.

before, they were having heated argument...but how is it possible the next minutes all the selfishness and the madness were gone.

no offence, i love the fluffiness, but i just don't think it suits right after they had an argument, seems like out of place...

well, i'm not trying to act smart, but it's because i'm upset over Jaejoong just like Yunho, and when Yunho suddenly did all weird things, i am displeased.


P.S. anyway, you are a great author...able to make readers feel exactly what stressing the characters...