The Beacon; My Siren - Chap 18

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Title: The Beacon; My Siren
Author: wild_terrain (ie. fi_chan)
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Chapter: [18 / ?]
Rating: MA15+
Genre: AU [FLANGST, mystery, spirituality, romance]
Summary: Philophobia… The fear of falling in love or being in love. I didn’t know such a thing existed until I met him… Kim JaeJoong was my age—a youthful 25 years—and the owner of a popular café, yet he was already known around town as the mysterious hermit who had chosen to completely withdraw from the world. How on earth could someone so young be afraid of loving others to the point of secluding themselves from all human beings? What was he afraid of? What was he hiding? I just didn’t understand it. And by that stage, the need to understand it was all I could think about... In fact, he was all I could think about…

Jung Yunho… For all of my life I had grown up away from the limelight. I couldn’t stand being noticed by anybody, and for a long time I thankfully never was. But then you came and suddenly you were everywhere – waving to me as I swept the café after closing, saying hello to me as you cycled past the bench I was sitting on, helping me carry my groceries inside whilst talking non-stop to me as if we were actually friends… Why are you always around making my heart thump erratically? Why do you even care? The more you try to explore this town, the more I need to step up and protect you from your own curiosity, because I know It is out there and I know It wants to harm you…

 

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A/N: I love you guys so much, and so here is the next chapter for you! However, I would like to write a big warning before you read it. This chapter happens to contain some...sensitive issues and I don't want to upset anyone, so please take care when reading. ^^;;

 

 

Yunho’s breath against my ear provided was a welcomed warmth that absent from the rest of my body in the cool wind. My chest was especially beginning to feel warm beneath my dark jumper as Yunho’s soft kisses floated over my neck. I didn’t know what to do with myself other than close my eyes and feel him loving me with his mouth.

We were up high away from anybody else on our Sunrise Rock. The ocean wasn’t particularly spectacular today, mimicking the grey clouds that were spread across the sky hanging above. There was no sun to shine off the waters, no deep blue current that made the town picturesque to anyone nearby. Most people were indoor shopping or watching TV out of boredom. On the way over to our secret lookout, there hadn’t even been many kids running around the parks.

To most people, this day was clearly unimportant and not in the least enticing. For once I was glad not to be like everyone else, for today was absolutely perfect for me. Yunho had come back to town, taken me back up to our favorite spot and made me feel special. He hadn’t wanted anything out of me other than to have my company. We hadn’t even really talked much yet. Our afternoon snacks lay untouched by our legs, still hidden under foil and cloth. Instead of food or speech, all Yunho had wanted was to kiss me and feel my jaws and cheeks after days of absence. I knew exactly how he felt.

It didn’t even bother me that the rock beneath my butt was starting to turn it numb, or that the trek up to this spot had made me hungry. Yunho was here again with me! How could I complain about anything else when my biggest wish had already been granted?

Gently stopping him from kissing my neck for the nth time, I leant in to kiss him on the lips. God, how I loved his lips. And his skin. How could I not slide my fingers over his cheek and jaw as we kissed? This afternoon I noticed his skin was far from smooth near his jaw, the tiny prickles of facial hair standing up taller to greet my fingertips. He hadn’t shaved today it seemed. I didn’t dare to believe it was because he’d been in such a rush to be on time for the train to my town.

“God, I missed you, JaeJoongie,” he murmured, his lips barely separate from mine yet.

“Me too,” I smiled shyly.

“I mean, I love my work and the kids there, but…”

“I know,” I smiled wider. “I know exactly.”

“I kinda missed this view too,” he admitted, leaning back onto his elbow and gazing out at the gray ocean and headlands. “This view is so beautiful… Just like you.” He gazed back at me, his smile faltering slightly as he took in my unimpressed expression.

“That was horrible, Yunho. Really terrible,” I teased.

“I know, I’m sorry,” he laughed back in embarrassment.

“Your pick-up lines are just as ridiculous as Yoochun’s.”

“He’s used pick-up lines on you before?”

I laughed a little at his furrowed brows. “No, of course not. I’ve heard them though, all the same. Wish I hadn’t. I’ve since refused to let him practice them around me.”

“You poor dear,” he chuckled, compelled by god knows what to lean in and kiss me again. I smiled against his eager lips and kissed him back. I didn’t think I could ever tire from this.

In fact, I didn’t think I could ever tire from him. He was just too amazing. Even despite the hurtful words I had thrown at him at the beginning of the week he had helped me get my wounded arm fixed up as best he could. He had driven me to the hospital with Yoochun’s car—after grumbling about it being a manual—and after seeing my nerves, talked me through the whole process of getting stitches. He’d had plenty of experience so I had clung onto his every word at the hospital waiting area before he left. He had such a way with words, it was amazing. He always knew how to interject the right amount of humor and lightheartedness into his words to calm me down. Even though I’d had to go through everything without him there to comfort me, his parting words had been comforting enough.

After my overnight visit at the hospital, my stitched up arm had looked even more unattractive than I had imagined. For that reason alone, I still kept it bandaged up to hide the ugliness of it all. Even though Yunho had seen things much worse on his own body, I refused to keep my healing wounds visible in front of him. It wasn’t that I was ashamed of them or anything, but they really did creep me out.

Lunch went well overlooking the ocean views from our cross-legged position in the small clearing. Yunho seemed to enjoy eating the meal I had prepared in celebration of his return, and as a cook, it was a wonderful compliment. In fact, as someone who really cared about him, to be able to cook for him and see his appreciation for my efforts was perhaps the biggest compliment of all.

Occasionally bits of rice would get stuck around the corner of his mouth. He never seemed to really notice though, stuffing his face as politely as he could but still managing to make a mess. I just sat and watched, smiling against my chopsticks. Somehow, having bits of rice lingering near his lips suited his image. Perhaps it was selfish of me to find amusement out of Yunho’s unnoticed messiness, but I really didn’t want to tell him right away.

By the time he put his chopsticks down, he still hadn’t noticed. Unable to swallow my amusement, I waited until his attention was back on me before pointing towards the corner of my lip—the spot where rice was still stuck on him.

Yunho leaned forward, smiling at my actions and gently pressed his lips against the corner of my mouth. My heart skipped a beat at the sudden action, my eyes staring in pleasant surprise into his once he moved away again.

“N-No, no,” I quickly uttered, my cheeks growing warm. “I wasn’t asking for a kiss there. I was trying to hint that you had rice stuck on your face in that spot!”

“Oh, really?” he laughed, wiping around his mouth carefully.

“Really.” I found myself smiling wider. “But thank you anyway.”

“You’re welcome,” he chuckled back.

I bowed my head until I was able to glimpse at my crossed legs. I had felt compelled to look away from him for some reason.

Leaves crunched under shifting weight and a shadow grew over my lap. His hand was gently stroking my hair, his lips leaving tiny kisses across my forehead.

Ah. That was why I felt so self-conscious. There was somebody who seemed to like me…

I lowered my head even lower, pleasantly surprised that my movement didn’t deter Yunho’s affection in the slightest.

A sudden war cry pierced the air and I gasped loudly as I was suddenly pushed sideways into Yunho’s lap, my perfect seating posture completely ruined.

I gasped for breath as Yunho continued to push down on my back, squishing me further into his lap and belly. “You are so unbelievably adorable!” he exclaimed, trying to mess up my hair. “You’re much too shy sometimes for your own good, mister!”

“Oww! Do you have to be so violent?”

He laughed at my muffled voice and eased up on my back until I was able to resurface. “Sorry, JaeJoongie. I couldn’t help myself for a second.”

“You need to work on your self-control. That sudden outburst scared me,” I pouted.

“Yes, yes.”

We sat in silence for a few minutes before Yunho suddenly cleared his throat. “Er, JaeJoongie?”

“Hmm?” I turned to gaze at him.

“Do you remember what we were talking about last time I was here? In town, I mean. The night you hurt yourself.” He nodded towards my bandaged arm.

I cast my eyes down, gazing reluctantly at the tight, white wrapping. A phantom pain seared through my flesh and almost stole my breath away. Then came the not-so-phantom anger. It all came rushing back, the thing I had tried to push out of my mind for most of the week. I was still so livid about Yunho being manipulated in his sleep. Playing around with me was one thing, but playing around with Yunho was just too much. I was so angry at myself for dragging him into my mess!

“JaeJoong?”

I looked up, Yunho’s soft call startling me.

“Do you remember what you told me that night? Or rather, what you promised me?”

“Yunho, we spoke about a lot of things that night…”

“Not really,” he muttered.

I let out a sigh. I knew it was time to stop stalling, but despite what I had promised him that night, my determination to shed some light on my past for him had dwindled over the week. I couldn’t let go of a nagging feeling that if I told him anything more about Damien’s passing it would be disastrous. It was so hard to differentiate between paranoia and gut feeling these days!

“Will you…tell me?” Yunho softly asked. “About what I need to know about your brother’s passing?”

Oh god, Yunho. Why here? Why now? Why does your curiosity always linger regardless of the time or place? I don’t want to have to tell you what happened whilst we’re in this place—in our special place. I don’t want to taint our rock with connotations of evil and death. Why, Yunho, why…?

“JaeJoongie? Are you okay? I-I’m sorry if—”

I shook my head, dragging my legs up until they were bent in front of my chest. Slipping my arms around them for comfort, I gazed at the tops of my knees and tried to control my breathing.

A warm palm covered my hand and I almost smiled. I didn’t shift my gaze to look up at him, though. “I’m cursed.”

Wow. That had sure rolled off my tongue far too easily. I guess I had been dying to come clean for a while now…

“Cursed?”

“Mm.”

“Okay…”

“Do you have to sound so condescending?” I sighed, glancing across at him with a scowl.

”Was that condescending? I didn’t mean it to be. Not at all,” he insisted, eyes widening.

I let out another sigh and fidgeted a little against the rock I was leaning on. “Yes, I’m cursed. I wasn’t the only one though, Damien was too.”

“I see…”

“When we were kids, we stumbled upon something we shouldn’t have. As you already know, Damien was a lot like you when it came to inquisitiveness and curiosity. He’d always drag me around the island where we lived, looking for strange new places to explore. Perhaps ‘dragged’ is a bit harsh though—I willingly followed him on his adventures. It’s just that I didn’t have much of a say. He was the leader and I was the assistant.

“But one day we walked further away from home than we should have. Our parents had never taken us near where we found ourselves that day. All the surroundings were new to the both of us. We shouldn’t have wandered so far out at such a young age, but…” I shrugged. “Kids will be kids. When you’re young, you never seem to grasp the dangers around you. You don’t quite understand that certain things are dangerous, and you certainly can’t always tell when you’re in danger until it’s too late.

“Well, it was getting late, but Damien was desperate to explore the little cave that was half-hidden amongst the forest. Damien always did have a fascination with rocks, so it was no surprise that he refused to take me back home until he had examined the spectacular rock formation of the little cave. It’s quite ironic that it was the rocks he loved so much that turned against him in the end, when he slipped on the cliff edge and fell asleep on his rock bed. But I’m getting ahead of myself,” I let out a grimace.

Still refusing to look at Yunho, I carried on. “That afternoon when Damien took me into the cave, we found something there. Some old coins. They were really, really old—so old we had never seen them before. To this day I still don’t know what century they were from… Anyway, there had been about four of them and they had been buried beneath the soil in the cave when Damien unearthed them by accident. Small fragments of silver had caught his eye, I guess, when he had flashed his little torch around the cave wall.

“In any case, he pocketed them for further observation and gave one of them to me. I believe I may have even whined to him that it wasn’t fair to keep them all to himself.” I let out a soft smile at the memory. I’d been such a brat…

“We somehow made our way home despite the sun starting to set and casting shadows everywhere. Damien was only six but he really did have an uncanny knack when it came to direction. He would have been so good at orienteering and all that scout stuff had he lived to finish elementary school…” I smiled again as the pride I’d always felt for my older brother warmed my belly. That pride had never left me, even now, after all these years…

“Every night after that, we’d take out our treasures from our hiding spot and stare at them together in the privacy of our room. I remember we used to keep them under a loose floorboard. How un-original, right?” I let out a soft chuckle. “We thought we were pretty cool for coming up with that hiding place. In that little hole we kept all out treasures. Feathers, bark, seashells, bouncy balls…

“I started feeling a bit odd, though. I can’t really explain it, but I just felt so…jumpy. I’d look at those old coins and they’d start to look ominous to me. I couldn’t put my finger on why, but I just really didn’t have a great feeling about them.

“Then about a week and a half after we had first stumbled across that cave, Damien decided he wanted to go back to that area and see if he could discover anymore hidden wonders. Since I never left his side, I, of course, followed him.

“If memory can be believed to be accurate, I believe it was a pretty day. The sun was up and there was hardly a cloud in the sky. Even though the areas we explore in were heavily forested, the sun was bright enough to chase away most of the shadows. It was a good day for exploring. Yet, something still didn’t feel right.

“Later that day, Damien died. He was compelled to walk over to an area he shouldn’t have. Then, as if someone invisible had run over and pushed him with great force, he fell over the edge and fell asleep on the rocks over a pillow of red.”

I fell into silence, my head hanging lower as I gazed down at my stinging palms. They were clutching the bottom of the rock I was leaning against, as if holding on for dear life, as if I too would fall if I let go. The rough edges of the rock were cutting deeply into my skin, but I just couldn’t release it.

Yunho, likewise, was sitting still. His hands were clasped together, flopping over the crossed legs he rested his lower arms over. His eyes were drawn downwards. I think I was glad. I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to look at him in the eyes right now and see the sympathy reflected in them.

Perhaps it was best to move on and finish my tale as quickly as possible.

“After Damien died, I buried the coins he had stolen in our backyard, but it wasn’t enough. About half a year later, my mother got really, really ill. There was nothing we could do but watch her illness take her away from us day by day. It came out of nowhere. One day she was…fine. She was my mother. And then the next, she could barely move. She didn’t look like my mother. Something else had possessed her and broken her from within. I felt…the presence of evil when I was around her then. Even after her passing, I could feel the evil in the air.

“So I dug up those awful coins, took them far away from what was left of my family, and buried them much further away. I didn’t want to go back to where Damien had originally found them—it was too scary—but I figured that as long as they were far away from us, it would be okay.

“I was wrong again.

“My father started acting strange. It really started to scare me. He barely spoke and he seemed to hate it whenever I was around. He scared me so much I couldn’t be near him either.”

I exhaled slowly and turned to glance at the forest beside us. I gazed at the long, thick tree trunks that stood over the dirt in messy lines. The branches that swooped over us looked thin in places but still sturdy. The tress in my childhood backyard had had thicker branches, but they still looked similar.

“My father, or whatever was in his body, went out into our garden. I was playing by myself in the house, avoiding him as usual. What happened then was really strange. He started climbing one of our trees…and then he fell. I heard him fall. It wasn’t really all that loud, but I still heard it through the window.

“I went outside to see if he was okay, and he was. He’d become a swing. He looked like those swings where a big tire is attached to a rope. He looked like he was having fun, swinging off the tree. I thought it was a strange way to play, but I had my own share of wacky games, so who was I to criticize?

“He swung for a really long time. The rope was short, but he was still able to tie himself to it and swing. It looked a little odd after a while though, because he didn’t make any effort to move and swing faster.

“I called out to him but he didn’t answer.

“I was so scared that night that I couldn’t sleep. I closed all the curtains and just sat huddled under my bedcover. I was so scared because I knew I was next. I knew it was only a matter of time before It got me too. Damien was punished, and now It was trying to get rid of me. My family had stood in front of me and fallen…

“Thankfully though, I was able to leave that island. When I next found the courage to leave the house, I just kept walking and walking. On one of the beaches at the side of the island, I saw a boat. The man who owned it, the man I considered my granddad from that day on, saw me and took me back with him to this town. I’ve never left it.

“But you know what, Yunho?” I didn’t even dare to look up from my knees and catch his eye. “My grandpa was doomed too. He may have been fine stepping foot on that island if he hadn’t then made a connection to me.

“It was probably less than two or three years before It found a way to harm him, but It managed. He just dropped dead. His heart just suddenly failed. My grandma was devastated. But lucky for her, she had never gone to that island and was able to live a decent life.

“It was only very slowly when she started having to make return visits to the hospital. She was getting too old to retain much of her health. I was a teenager by then and old enough to be able to promise her that I’d look after her restaurant. I kept everything the same—except for the name. The name, I knew I needed to change, to let my brother know I was still thinking of him, that the two of us would always remain together no matter what.”

I tilted my head back to stretch my stiff neck and stared at the beautiful sky. Nearby such beautiful land it was hard to believe that such evil could exist. Which shadows was it lurking behind?

At any rate, I was relieved to have finished explaining my story to Yunho. Well, most of it.

“So you see, Yunho…” I murmured, studying the shape of a large cloud hanging directly over me. “Your dreams cannot be trusted. I think you understand the point of my story, and if not, I will reiterate: there is a curse attached to me. It started the day Damien and I claimed someone else’s possessions—someone who wasn’t happy about it. It got my beloved brother quickly, but for twenty years I have somehow evaded it. It’s not happy, though. Every day I live, It isn’t happy and I can feel it.

“I thought I’d mostly be safe in this town. The only reason my grandfather was hit was because he had gone to that island too. I thought all I’d have to do was keep people away from that island too, just in case. I couldn’t bare it if someone else was punished just because of me and my childhood stupidity.

“For a long time I was successful; I was able to spread enough rumors and sabotage with Yoochun so that no one would go there. Not even the authorities and real estate tycoons went there—no one would ever want to buy land there after so many people died there. But then you came along, Yunho…”

I finally lowered my head from the sky to gaze at him with a small, tired smile. He returned my gaze, but there wasn’t a trace of amusement on his face.

“You started asking so many questions about that damn island. I’d never seen someone so eager to explore a place that’s reputation was so glum and horrible. Even Yoochun didn’t know what to do with you. Normally it was Yoochun’s job to warn customers since he had access to speak to everyone and overhear conversations as he passed, but he had to get me to deal with you.”

I noticed the slight questioning look on Yunho’s face and I shook my head. “Yoochun doesn’t actually know anything, if that is what you were wondering. Somehow I got him scared enough about that island without telling him the whole story, and he agreed to help me out if it was as dangerous as I knew it to be. Yoochun’s good like that, I guess… He has a lot of trust and loyalty to give, even towards those like me who aren’t even his closest of friends…

“But Yunho…” I swallowed the slight layer of phlegm tightening my throat up. “Please trust me too. Please. I beg you…”

He nodded slowly.

“Please don’t ever go to that island. Please trust me.”

“I trust you…” His words were soft. I hoped that didn’t mean he was unsure.

“Okay then… You trust me about that, but do you trust me about your dreams? I know the pattern, Yunho. Anyone connected to me gets punished. You weren’t supposed to be my friend, Yunho. But somehow…” I trailed off, biting my lip. “Anyway... I guess It’s getting sick of waiting to get me, so It’s using you now. It’s trying to lure you onto Its side by giving you vivid dreams that are supposedly about my brother. I don’t now what It’s trying to achieve exactly, I don’t know what It’s trying to get you to do, but the end result will always be the same.

“Just ignore those dreams, Yunho. Ignore them and hopefully they’ll go away. Don’t let It keep fooling you, because you’re smarter than It. Please believe me, okay?”

“O-Okay…”

I sighed, tilting my head and raising my eyebrows.

“I promise,” he groaned back.

“Good.”

I found myself gazing out at the ocean beside us. The water was so vast, touching the edges of all the small islands and headlands scattered about. Somewhere hidden behind one of the other islands was the place I once called home. Other island may have been hiding it for my sake, but I could still feel it there. It was there somewhere in the grey ocean.

The water looked so deep… I wondered which part of it concealed Damien’s bones.

All of a sudden I couldn’t stand being there anymore. The water was so taunting and the steep cliff edge we were sitting nearby started to seem highly unstable to me.

“Y-Yunho, I want to go home.”

He was by my side, touching my shoulders and trying to look at my face. I couldn’t move. All of my bones had just stiffened up and wouldn’t budge. Would I have to sit like this forever? A human statue covered in bird droppings and autumn leaves?

Thank god my mouth could move, though. “Y-Yunho, take me away from here. I don’t want to be here. I DON’T WANT TO BE HERE!”

“It’s okay, sweetie, it’s okay!” Yunho’s calming voice eased up my muscles a little bit. His hands touched my cheeks. They were nice and warm. They moved my face up until all I could see was him. “We’ll go home now, okay?”

I nodded into his hands, trusting every word he was telling me. His deep brown eyes radiated safety. His hands were safe. When he was with me I was safe.

“Thank you for telling me everything today,” he murmured, bringing his face closer to stroke my nose with his and plant a lingering kiss on my forehead.

I held onto his back, burying my face into the dark, warm nook between his upper arm and chest. I was able to stay there for a nice long moment, closing my eyes to escape the world, feeling nothing but him.

I was no longer alone.



That night I couldn’t sleep. Even though I had made sure the curtains had been drawn properly, not letting ever a hint of darkness from outside peep into my bedroom, I still felt as thought something was coming into my room.

Yunho was fast asleep beside me, snoring ever so softly. It was reassuring to know I wasn’t the only one in the room, but what if something were to happen? Yunho would be asleep and I’d be completely vulnerable.

I felt so cold. I was under several layers of blankets, but my body felt freezing. Maybe something was in the room. Yunho was immune to it, but I wasn’t.

I was a child huddled under my blanket, feeling tiny in the big room that used to hold a lot more people. The curtains were all drawn so that I wouldn’t have to look at the horrors outside. It was scary. The world was a scary place. Things were coming to get me and I didn’t know what to do.

At least this time though, I had someone beside me.

Shifting over in the bed, I moved my head in front of Yunho’s until I could feel his soft breath on my chin.

“Yun? Yunho?” I whispered, reaching out to quickly shake his shoulder when he didn’t awaken. I whimpered, starting to panic, and tried to grab him a little bit harder until he came back to life.

“Huh?” he breathed out, fidgeting on the pillow until he realized why he had been waken up. “What’s wrong, JaeJoongie?”

I didn’t know how to answer him.

“Something is wrong. What is it, JaeJoong?”

“I can’t sleep. I guess I’m a bit…unsettled.”

“It’s okay, I understand,” he whispered, and I believed him.

The next thing I knew, his arms were wrapped around my cold body, his chin resting against the top of my head. The pressure wasn’t enough to hurt, but just enough for me to feel secure.

“Do you want to hear a funny story?” he asked, somewhat mischievously. After a nod from me gave him the green light, he chuckled cheekily and began his story. “Well, this one time at work, Junsu and I were taking our break together in the main recreation area and we saw this kid…”

I smiled against his collarbone and listened to his story. I fell asleep before I even heard the end.


///TBC///

A/N: Hmmmm, so a whole chunk of Jae’s past has finally been told. Can ya blame the poor kid for keeping it secret? Aiiiish, poor Jae. If I was Yun, I’d be like ‘holy shitty shit shit, what do I say? What do I say?’ lols~

Oh gosh, to the people still here reading this fic of mine, I cannot thank you enough. Your ongoing support for me in my hiatus period was really touching and amazing. You guys are all beautiful, wonderful people! I’m really glad to have you around with me on this fic journey. ^_~ *hugs hugs*

Until next time, my peeps! <3

Comments

[wild-terrain.livejournal.com]

Spot for jadyuu! For being so sweet and awesome!! You know why, hun! XD

[jadyuu.livejournal.com]

This is my spot ! *O*
*happy dance*

Now we finally know about Jaejoong's past, and it's not pretty... Poor Jaejoong, I understand why he couldn't speak about it. I can't wait to read Yunho's POV, what does he think about it ? Does he think that Jaejoong is really cursed or that it's just big paranoïa ? Mmh, whatever this "thing" is, I don't know if it will be happy knowing that Jaejoong IS being happy. I really wonder what Yunho is gonna do.... Maybe he will have doubts about it, like "Is this real ? For real ??", but if something strange and dangerous happen to Jaejoong I feel like Yunho will do everything to save him, like going on this pretty scary island o_O
But, are Yunho's dreams really fake ? And what if it WAS really Damien telling Yunho to save Jaejoong ?
And...I mean if Yunho want to stop the curse, what can he do ? After listenning to Jaejoong's story, I feel like nothing can be done o_O I understand why Jaejoong is so afraid, he can feel this evil thing but he know that he can't do anything to stop it, he can just escape. It would be pretty difficult to fight with the ocean...
My, the suspense is coming with the fiction part ! The atmosphere in the story changed... It's like if everything is slowly becoming dark and only Jaejoong, Yunho, Yoochun and Junsu remain shining. Like four candles in the night.

Thank you or saving me a post ! I am sooo happy ! It' the first time someone is saving me a post ! T__T *hugs*
=D
Oh and I have a question : Is Changmin gonna be a part of the story ?

[wild-terrain.livejournal.com]

Beta Spot (hahaha oh the pun!) for moon1084. Beta gurrrl, put the bass in your walk! Head to toe, let your whole body talk.

[moon1084.livejournal.com]

"Don't be jealous of my boogie"

LMAO! We seriously need a life outside of Drag Race. Its bad enough we are YUNJAE fag hags but now we are drag hags too! LMAO! Oh why am i complaining though seriously???

That beginning scene was soooo sooo fluuuuf-tastic and i loved it so much. Makes me wanna to go through the trouble of getting a man. keke! or maybe i can get a fake one like yours. He can put up with my yunjae/dbsk fangirling and my crazy moodswings. just a understanding man. i can abuse him all i want.

woah so i can totally see whats going on here. I seriously hope that yunho can help jaejoongie out. I mean we can't blame him though. Poor guy was so young to see all those deaths happen in front of him. So damn tramautizing for a young child. I loved how comforting yunho was towards jaejoong. its good to see jaejoong's reserve breaking down with yunho. he has held everything in for so long so i am glad yunho is being there for him. I kinda think i know what yunho is thinking but then i am not sure. I think this yunho is more about logic.

The ending scene with him being scared is soo adorable. LOL! If my man woke me up like that, I would be like mofo grow some balls and turn my head to the other side and pass out again. LMAO!

Great update Fi! Glad to see that you are back.

[dilovesyunjae.livejournal.com]

errr....spot too?

[dilovesyunjae.livejournal.com]

glad you're back!!

and oh woow...if i were yunho, i wouldnt know what to say...

[kiisachan.livejournal.com]

SPOT XD!!

[kiisachan.livejournal.com]

i think i have been a silent reader until today ^-^''
Yunjae moments are <3333!! It makes me all "aww and kyaaa" !! Jae's past was so much T^T!! Having to see the ppl u love so much die and you stay alone must be so hard for him!! no wonder he tries to keep ppl away from the island and himself. Poor him to live thinking that he is cursed...now i wonder if the coins are cursed @-@!! I'm happy that at least Jae has Yunho to make him feel safe tonight, this story just gets more interesting!!...I cant wait for the next chapter xD!! thanks for updating!!

[swallowtt.livejournal.com]

SPOTTO! ^^ i shall be back after some sleep.

[swallowtt.livejournal.com]

yikes! a curse, huh? perhaps, the only way to undo this is to find the coins again and bury them back into that cave where they belong. either that or get the winchester brothers to fight the evil. sorry, my luv for 'supernatural' is overwhelming. XD but...eek...that would be quite frightening. poor jae. well, at least yunho doesn't think he's nuts after hearing all that. hopefully, they figure something out. perhaps, jae could live in the city with yunho. :D i shall await ur next chappie.

[ultamatempa.livejournal.com]

!!! well....i'd be pretty freaked out....but i don't know if i'd be freaking out about seeing dead people in my dreams or worried about jae's mental health. i'm a bit conflicted at the moment. jae wouldn't lie about it, but i'm very skeptical about supernatural things....so i wouldn't know what to think if i were yunho. is the next chapter going to be in yunho's point of view?

[irerd-taga.livejournal.com]

So reserving a little spot right here! Thank u very much! Lolz~~

[irerd-taga.livejournal.com]

Yay to an update!

No wonder Jae's so traumatised! Poor man! To have seen his brother, his mother, his father and lastly the grandfather who took him in die one by one must've been so horrendous to a young boy. It's a wonder that he didn't go insane from the grief and terror of always looking over his shoulder for It!

Glad to see that Yunho's being so accomodating towards Jae's wishes. What a good boyfriend he is ne!

I'm so very glad to have you back!!!♥

[quixoticfox.livejournal.com]

Lol, and I thought the previous chapter was creepy. Poor Jaejoong, that's an awful secret to live with. I really hope whatever it is will leave them alone. Probably not though huh? Yunjae are so damn cute, I want to keep them in my pocket.
Thanks for the update ^_^

[quixoticfox.livejournal.com]

Jae's not crazy is he? :/

[steffiluvlife.livejournal.com]

hello dear! missed this and you!:)
poor jaejoongie, having to hold on to a secret that has kept him isolated for 20 years. just hope no harm comes to him or yunho, especially yunho.
i wonder how joongie would actually be handling the future, would he make yunho go away?

joongie really needs closure to this, it has haunted him enough duncha think:)

[trieze0713.livejournal.com]

Thanks for updating!! Now part of the mystery's out, I can't wait to see how Yunho will handle Jaejoong next :D So happy for the update...

[kiyazawa.livejournal.com]

finally i'm here... ><
after missed alot chapter before...
hehehehe...
spot first,, i'll be back!!!
^^

[kiyazawa.livejournal.com]

it really is my lost that i missed a lot of chapter back then...
gooossshh,, >______<
and im so glad finally i can catch up with this story.... after such a long time didn't have a time to read this..
and when i read this yesterday, it's just in one go and i already finished 10 chapters till i reach this chapter...
XDDDD
a more and more interseting plot you have here,, and don't expect it at all when suddenly yunho popped up in front of jaejoong's cafe once again and then till they became a lovers,,
i still can't belive it!!! yes!!! my yunjae finally... XDD

the horrible past finally revealed...
that's really a bad past he has... *sigh*
and with the feared jaejoong face for his entire life since his brother's dead, i understand when he didn't want to interact with people...
goosshh,, my poor jaejoongie... h suffered alone all this time..
it's great to know that there is yunho beside him now...
at least he could share his pain to others...

need to read moar.. ok...
i really want to read more of this...
please update soon cz if you're not, i'll stalk wherever you are and go...
XDDDDDD
*huggles*

[pinkmonkeydream.livejournal.com]

That IS seriously creepy. Poor Joongie.Yunho is so sweet to him. Awww! More! I got so excited to see this update and finally Jae tells his story.

[emeraud-hero.livejournal.com]

I hope it will have a happy ending! This is so dark.
I hope the vurse will be rid away

[1stepcl0ser.livejournal.com]

omg omg omg a new chapter!!!! this made my day!!! YOU made my day!! xDD

it's suuuuuuuuuch a great chapter ;____; if i were yunho i would be like "omg... what to say? omg.." but he was sooo cute while listening to jae. i really hope he won't go to that island but somehow i feel it has to happen XD i mean, something must happen, right?

it was very... interesting... to read about jae's past, although it's so sad. but finally yunho knows a lot more about him. but i bet it won't keep away from one of them very soon! ;__;

the end was so cute! both of them are so cute XD i'm so happy that they're together <3

i am SO looking forward to the next chapter! thank you for uploading it *hugs you*

[blu-eyezz.livejournal.com]

Yea~!Ur back ^^

I agree with u, half the time when I was reading JJ's story, i was thinking if it was me what the hell would I say in return??! 0_0

Am glad to hear JJ's past though, I hope it doesnt turn out that he became mentally unstable or something...but am happy that Yunho is there with him.They can get through this together ^^

Thank you for the lovely update :) ~

[youinmyjumpsuit.livejournal.com]

i would seriously be creeped out too. O_O
but yunho makes me worry. he's too curious for his own good!

[yunho1205.livejournal.com]

So we now know about Jae's past, poor guy!! Oh yeah, YAY!! AN UPDATE!! Just had to get that in there!! :) Anywho! I hope nothing happens to Yunho!! Geez, I wish Jae had an easier life. *sigh*

[zoevo.livejournal.com]

YOU UPDATED!!!! and I'm so happyyyyyy!
As always, yunjae's romantic moments are so sweet and full of innocent kisses.
This chapter opened up a lot about Jae's past but I guess Jae still left out something very important 'cause all the events and deaths that happened around him are not yet abnormal enough to be deemed as a curse. I wonder whether Yun really believed him or just be supportive.
btw, the scene with the father hanging like a swing scared the sh*t out of me, enough to give me a nightmare after.
Thank you for this fic,
<3

[steorie.livejournal.com]

Holy moly...no wonder JJ is how he is. >.< I feel so sorry for him and his story is just crazy. I wouldnt knwo what to reponse after hearing such a sad story.

Hope Yun will listen to JJ and will not go to that island. >_>

Happy u are back again fi. ♥

[jae4now.livejournal.com]

OMG!!!!! your back.
i will go read now....

[jae4now.livejournal.com]

ok you got to come back soon.
jaejoong can't be curse. someone is doing all of this.

[jhyjfan.livejournal.com]

So that's how Jae's brother died...they shouldn't have taken those coins. Perhaps if Jae found the courage to burry the coins where they belong, the evil spirt (?) will go away.

[flidi.livejournal.com]

I am glad that you are here again i thanks for writing this fic. I hope you continue This story soon.

:-)

[castrjen18.livejournal.com]

*smiling* Gosh, all I can say it as worth the waiting... this story always gets to me and that's why I love it! Anyway, I'm really happy your writing again *clapping* and I will patiently wait for your next update

Love, Jenn

[twiglet71.livejournal.com]

Well it's midnight here and I have to go to bed soon but I feel a bit spooked out! That was a very interesting but dark chapter. First of all I concluded that the curse was Jae's paranoia. The trauma had caused him to look for reasons for the tragedy surrounding him but then how does that explain Yunho's dreams? Yunho should just take him away from it all!!
Anyway it is a great chapter and I'm really glad you're back. It was a treat to log on and see an update. Looking forward to the next update sweetheart xxxx

[toni-luv.livejournal.com]

Wow! Now that's the story behind his families deaths. To Yunho's curiosity is he going to dig up the islands history, finding these coins to examine to find what time they predate to it's history, why Jaejoong thinks these coins and island has to something to do. Is just a rough start just by asking around since his only source is afraid to set foot back on that island. Little help to this century technology he doesn't even need to step a toe on rocks. But it's how not breaking his trust to Jaejoong.