Sh!ttttttt. I wrote 5111-word comment and now I lost all. AHHHHH~how careless I am >___< huhuhhuhuhuhuhu... Huzzz, try to rewrite again now T___T
In the previous chapter, I just could see that JJ was haunted by the assault, making him always scared of being attacked and had insomniac but he still felt happy besides YH. But this chapter reveal another serious consequence. Yepp, it is indeed that "Being awake at night was dangerous. There was nothing much to do but think. And God knows how dangerous thinking was…" The silence of the nights tends to make someone thoughtful too much. Jaejoong became all skeptical about himself, Yunho and their love. But I think Jaejoong’s reaction is absolutely inevitable for Yunho always kept his ideal image in front of Jaejoong. When their life was still bright, Jaejoong was satisfied with his always-perfect boyfriend but when their beautiful life collapsed, especially Jaejoong was not as pure as an angel anymore, Yunho’s perfection would make Jaejoong feel as if Yunho was suppressing his disappointment and tried to endure his dirtied boyfriend. Because we all know that no one can remain that sane after witness some thing that awful. If I was Jaejoong, I also would have thought that the one Yunho truly loved was an angelic and holy Jaejoong only, so if Jaejoong could not turn back to his old self soon, Yunho would certainly leave him. (And in Jaejoong’s vision, it was clearly that he can never be the old Jaejoong again) That thought really frightened the life out of Jaejoong.
“The light from the flickering flame was discolouring my skin. It looked sick, unhealthy and tainted. …………That countless people on this continent had gained unauthorised access to it when the only person I wanted to have such a privilege was Yunho?” I love this part. After undergoing something that horrifying and disgraceful, not so many people can be brave enough to carry on their lives. Dying is so easy, just need a slide on you wrist. While being able to continue your life no matter how awful it will be is the most difficult but also the most beautiful solution that someone can choose. I feel extremely admire JJ for he must have a strongest will to choose this way. (Woww~ why do I admire so many people nowadays??? …just because of you, do you know that? Yes, I know you know since I have just tell you ^^ They were the most compatible couple in the world, right?) Yes, JJ was not just a porcelain doll, he is an actual HERO.
Awwww~ but JJ was so mean when deceiving YH that he had had sex with Min on YH’s bed. It totally drove MY beloved Yunho crazy (hehe…let me call YH mine just this time, huh??? Ouchhh~ don’t kick my butt…wahwahhh..it hurts =____=) Tsk, tsk, the major had such a hot-temper and really gullible. But I would rather YH had threaten to kill Min than JJ (oh no~ it does not mean that I don’t love Min) since no matter what happened, I still do not wish to see YH behave violently towars his love. Anyway, finally JJ could see something more earthly, more human in YH.
At first, I want JJ to gradually tell YH about what had happened to him in NK for YH could understand and share with JJ. But I guess, somehow, JJ was right. Although YH kept saying that he knew every cruel thing, he was not really ready to accept that naked fact. Fot al least JJ had a whole year to adapt while YH-nothing. Anyway now YH understood so whether or not JJ would tell him about it was a matter no more. Whatever, they would tried and be happy again.
I may be crazy to feel it quite humorous in this kind of situation “You try to imagine what they did to me?! What, does it turn you on or something? Give you cheap thrills?! Why the FUCK would you try to imagine?!” OMGGG~ how could JJ think that YH feel aroused when those bastards raped JJ? His confused mind was really create many weird and funny thoughts. Anyway, it was still rather evil to say something like that to YH.
Huzz, I want badly to know who was the luckiest human being witnessing YunJae’s hot making out. OMGGGG~ but pray that person was not YH’s superior or else our dear major would become a dead meat for sure TT______TT
Ahhh~ you always make my Sunday full of joy, A REALLY REALLY TRULY BIG JOY ^^ Happy Sunday <3333
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Date: 2008-04-20 05:58 am (UTC)Huzzz, try to rewrite again now T___T
In the previous chapter, I just could see that JJ was haunted by the assault, making him always scared of being attacked and had insomniac but he still felt happy besides YH. But this chapter reveal another serious consequence. Yepp, it is indeed that "Being awake at night was dangerous. There was nothing much to do but think. And God knows how dangerous thinking was…" The silence of the nights tends to make someone thoughtful too much. Jaejoong became all skeptical about himself, Yunho and their love. But I think Jaejoong’s reaction is absolutely inevitable for Yunho always kept his ideal image in front of Jaejoong. When their life was still bright, Jaejoong was satisfied with his always-perfect boyfriend but when their beautiful life collapsed, especially Jaejoong was not as pure as an angel anymore, Yunho’s perfection would make Jaejoong feel as if Yunho was suppressing his disappointment and tried to endure his dirtied boyfriend. Because we all know that no one can remain that sane after witness some thing that awful. If I was Jaejoong, I also would have thought that the one Yunho truly loved was an angelic and holy Jaejoong only, so if Jaejoong could not turn back to his old self soon, Yunho would certainly leave him. (And in Jaejoong’s vision, it was clearly that he can never be the old Jaejoong again) That thought really frightened the life out of Jaejoong.
“The light from the flickering flame was discolouring my skin. It looked sick, unhealthy and tainted. …………That countless people on this continent had gained unauthorised access to it when the only person I wanted to have such a privilege was Yunho?”
I love this part. After undergoing something that horrifying and disgraceful, not so many people can be brave enough to carry on their lives. Dying is so easy, just need a slide on you wrist. While being able to continue your life no matter how awful it will be is the most difficult but also the most beautiful solution that someone can choose. I feel extremely admire JJ for he must have a strongest will to choose this way. (Woww~ why do I admire so many people nowadays??? …just because of you, do you know that? Yes, I know you know since I have just tell you ^^ They were the most compatible couple in the world, right?) Yes, JJ was not just a porcelain doll, he is an actual HERO.
Awwww~ but JJ was so mean when deceiving YH that he had had sex with Min on YH’s bed. It totally drove MY beloved Yunho crazy (hehe…let me call YH mine just this time, huh??? Ouchhh~ don’t kick my butt…wahwahhh..it hurts =____=) Tsk, tsk, the major had such a hot-temper and really gullible. But I would rather YH had threaten to kill Min than JJ (oh no~ it does not mean that I don’t love Min) since no matter what happened, I still do not wish to see YH behave violently towars his love. Anyway, finally JJ could see something more earthly, more human in YH.
At first, I want JJ to gradually tell YH about what had happened to him in NK for YH could understand and share with JJ. But I guess, somehow, JJ was right. Although YH kept saying that he knew every cruel thing, he was not really ready to accept that naked fact. Fot al least JJ had a whole year to adapt while YH-nothing. Anyway now YH understood so whether or not JJ would tell him about it was a matter no more. Whatever, they would tried and be happy again.
I may be crazy to feel it quite humorous in this kind of situation “You try to imagine what they did to me?! What, does it turn you on or something? Give you cheap thrills?! Why the FUCK would you try to imagine?!” OMGGG~ how could JJ think that YH feel aroused when those bastards raped JJ? His confused mind was really create many weird and funny thoughts. Anyway, it was still rather evil to say something like that to YH.
Huzz, I want badly to know who was the luckiest human being witnessing YunJae’s hot making out. OMGGGG~ but pray that person was not YH’s superior or else our dear major would become a dead meat for sure TT______TT
Ahhh~ you always make my Sunday full of joy, A REALLY REALLY TRULY BIG JOY ^^
Happy Sunday <3333