I feel so bad for Jaejoong. Honestly, if I'm in Jae's position, I think I would feel the same...but I feel so angry at him for Yunho...for ever doubting Yunho's love was fake...
I think I could understand why he felt that way, but it still hurts...and it hurts bad...
I cry too at Yunho's part..maybe cause the tear duct is already activated, I couldn't stop it from flowing out anymore.
Honestly, I feel like smacking Jae real hard to wake him up and tell him to open his eyes and see....that Yunho is sincere with his feelings and love him all the same for all his flaws, imperfections and even "impurities". If you asked me, I think Yunho loves Jae more after his assaults for trying to rpotect his purity from being invaded to the point of impossible and for staying alive and braving the days. Shit, I'm gonna start crying again now. I would think Yunho would have blame himself more for not being able to protect the one that he love...
But on the other hand..maybe this demoralising and looking down on himself mode is something Jae has to go thru before he can fully accept himself. No one is perfect. Even before his assaults, he was not perfect then....so I don't think he should keep thinking that he's now just a piece of shit that don't deserve any loving. It'll only cause himself and Yunho more so, I don' think he should keep harping on this point...
I agree with Yunho. If Jae is with Min then it's betrayal cause it's a choice. But with all those other men, it was a forced action...he even refused to allow the animals to kiss his lips even though they hurt him cause he's trying to at least protect something that will belong sacred to Yunho..and that's what's I call courage and COMMITMENT...he should remember that and maybe then he'll feel less of his so-called "betrayal" towards Yunho..
Like you, I'm glad that they've got some of their issues out..though not everything is fixed..but this healing process will takes time. No matter how tought and hard this healing journey is, I'm confident that Yunho will go through it with him. In addition, Jae will have 2 very good friends, Min and Hannie to help him along....
No idea why, but this chapter has put me in a very serious mood now...
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Date: 2008-04-19 04:54 am (UTC)I feel so bad for Jaejoong. Honestly, if I'm in Jae's position, I think I would feel the same...but I feel so angry at him for Yunho...for ever doubting Yunho's love was fake...
I think I could understand why he felt that way, but it still hurts...and it hurts bad...
I cry too at Yunho's part..maybe cause the tear duct is already activated, I couldn't stop it from flowing out anymore.
Honestly, I feel like smacking Jae real hard to wake him up and tell him to open his eyes and see....that Yunho is sincere with his feelings and love him all the same for all his flaws, imperfections and even "impurities". If you asked me, I think Yunho loves Jae more after his assaults for trying to rpotect his purity from being invaded to the point of impossible and for staying alive and braving the days. Shit, I'm gonna start crying again now. I would think Yunho would have blame himself more for not being able to protect the one that he love...
But on the other hand..maybe this demoralising and looking down on himself mode is something Jae has to go thru before he can fully accept himself. No one is perfect. Even before his assaults, he was not perfect then....so I don't think he should keep thinking that he's now just a piece of shit that don't deserve any loving. It'll only cause himself and Yunho more so, I don' think he should keep harping on this point...
I agree with Yunho. If Jae is with Min then it's betrayal cause it's a choice. But with all those other men, it was a forced action...he even refused to allow the animals to kiss his lips even though they hurt him cause he's trying to at least protect something that will belong sacred to Yunho..and that's what's I call courage and COMMITMENT...he should remember that and maybe then he'll feel less of his so-called "betrayal" towards Yunho..
Like you, I'm glad that they've got some of their issues out..though not everything is fixed..but this healing process will takes time. No matter how tought and hard this healing journey is, I'm confident that Yunho will go through it with him. In addition, Jae will have 2 very good friends, Min and Hannie to help him along....
No idea why, but this chapter has put me in a very serious mood now...