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Hi there.

So this is the most bizarre post I'm likely to ever make... I guess you could consider it a kind of funny story.

Consider me a lost puppy right now.

Basically, this weekend I was going to make a (small) announcement. That announcement was that I had a new fic I was going to start posting.

I am aware TB;MS has two or three chapters left still but this new fic was just going to be a complimentary project I could have fun with at the same time to balance out my emotions. (TB;MS is very taxing on my emotions. I love it but it is one hell of a bitch to write.)

The new fic makes me laugh. It's good fun even though it's not strictly comedy (FLANGST, baby). I already had a banner for it, I had an OST for it (for my own purposes, I wouldn't enforce it on others because we all connect with different music), and more importantly, I had a title that I’ve never wanted to change since the minute it came into my head over a year ago: Across The Line (oh the many metaphors). All that was left was a summary for it (and I think the majority of us cry at the thought of having to write a decent summary XD).

But... A lovely little spanner has been thrown in the works. I don't know whether to laugh or cry.

^LOL sorry, couldn't help myself. He's too cute.

Let me start off with a little anecdote:

One day a very nervous but excited fanfic writer sent out her first TB;MS drafts to her beta.  (Yeh okay, talking in third person about yourself is so creepy so let's just stop that one right there.) Anyhoo, very shortly after I sent these drafts over, photobook pictures were released of DBSK in Saipan where Yunho was rock climbing shirtless. I FREAKED OUT (and not in a good way) because Yunho was supposed to be a rock climbing instructor in TB;MS. I sent a freak-out email to my beta saying everyone would think I was uncreative and I ranted on, predicting a sudden influx of YunJae fics where Yunho had something to do with rock climbing. My poor beta had to calm me down and assure me that she doubted there'd suddenly be an outbreak of rock climber!Ho stuff everywhere after AADBSK3. And as far as I'm aware, she was completely right. But this is just how I am. I panic about originality (I guess because I always demand the best from myself. Maybe I should seek help about that =P).

^ I know, Yunho, I felt the same. XD

I can laugh about that rock climbing Ho freak-out now. But something has just happened that made that little incident look like a sneeze.

Today I loaded up a new anime I was looking forward to watching -- which very quickly became my worst nightmare. In just the first ten minutes (ten freaking minutes!), I saw glimpses of the story I had started writing. Of course the anime's actual storyline is totally different from mine (from what I can gather from its summary at least), but that first 10 minutes is basically my brain cut open on a screen. So many coincidences. My friend was watching my horror unfold and even he had to laugh at how crazy the coincidences became. I don't know if this makes me a 'genius' or so very very uncreative!

This has never happened to me before. It's surreal. And it's awful. I put my heart into this fic and now it just looks like I had zero imagination (and tried to plagiarise a popular anime to boot). And as someone passionate about writing, I take these things very seriously.

This afternoon I wrote a 4 page essay/rant to convince myself to calm down because it was all okay and I had just been overreacting (I'm a little eccentric, please pray for my soul XD). I laid it all out visually so I could examine in depth the parts I thought were similar to see if there was any real damage at all. That was a healthy experience and I did indeed calm down, and was even able to laugh at myself for being so sensitive... I thought: "See, you big crazy goose! If you finish the rest of the episode, you'll see how it's not as bad as you thought!" But as my friend said, FAMOUS LAST WORDS! Because guess what happened then? Before my very eyes, I saw a detail I thought WOULD NEVER be in danger of being used in this anime ACTUALLY HAPPEN in the next part of the ep. I'm sure my jaw dropped for a good few minutes. It was such an obscure detail!

So now I am past getting worked up and just hysterically laughing!!

(Me: Well, meanie-poos anime, at least your character didn't _____. Anime: He didn't. But another one did. Me: GET OUT! *bitch slap fight*)

I mean, of all things THAT ONE OBSCURE DETAIL HAPPENED! Not quite in the same way as mine, but still! What the hell! And this is why I became hysterical enough to even be here writing this post like a crazy person. That one obscure detail was well and truly what pushed the train out of AWKWARD TOWN and straight into WHAT THE FUCKITY FUCK VILLE.

Hmm.. I know I should know better than to panic--the things I write, I write because they mean something to me and thus are something other people have gone through too on this journey called life. So of course something I, a human, has experienced and felt, is going to be something another human has experienced and felt, which will then also be used as inspiration for a story where other human characters experience it too. Long cycle. Loooong, long cycle.

BUT THAT ONE FREAKING OBSCURE DETAIL! I just can't get over it! What are the chances!
(Are you curious what that obscure detail was? I'll never tell! Nyahaha. It's actually pretty insignificant but to me it was still a pain in the bum-bum. Maybe if I post the fic, I'll point it out when it comes up and have another laugh.)

The logical side of me knows that a few coincidences does not mean my whole story is now worthless but boy is it annoying. I know what really matters is that I know I came up with THAT ONE BLOODY OBSCURE DETAIL years prior so my conscience is clear. It's just disappointing that something I was working hard on feels a little cheapened now... Ohhhh well. Hopefully years from now I will be laughing over this... (in a less creepy, crazed, hysterical kind of way of course).

Anyhoos... Blergh. This is not the way I wanted to introduce my new fic; I told myself I would announce its existence after I had written three chapters that I was totally satisfied with. Now I guess I am announcing it this way... But in the end, I believe in my fic. What has ten minutes worth of unfortunate coincidences got on a story that I've poured my heart into? Those few coincidences don't even begin to cover the heart and core of my fic. (And I am sure the rest of that anime is fabulous too *stares at it with mock stinkeye -- Stephen Colbert VS Rain/Bi Style*)

I think my next step is to reasses when the time is right to show it to you guys. What would have been next week might have to be pushed back further. I'll need to think more on this after a good night's sleep.

Well, if there is one thing you get out of reading this hot-mess of a post, it is this: please give me a hug and do not ever, ever, think that I plagiarise. As you can see, this is a nightmare for me. T_T

Annnnnd, if you guys have made it this far down the post, here is the working banner I've been using for the new fic! (I'm not a graphic person, it's the best I can do for now. ^^;;)

^ I swear to god that Lafuma shoot was a godsend! Just perfect.

Date: 2013-07-29 03:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hyungie.livejournal.com
FI~~~~~~ /pokes pokes/

i read all that and i think you're absolutely precious! soooo cute! cant wait for the new fic~ =))


Date: 2013-07-30 12:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
hahah!! Oh boy. Thank you, Naza! And apologies if you caught me swearing on twitter. XDD

Date: 2013-07-29 03:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ultamatempa.livejournal.com
oh geez! that sure is a lot of coincidences! i'm sure it's a sign that you're highly creative and should probably go into scriptwriting or something, because your ideas sell on tv. i wouldn't worry about it because you're an absolutely amazing author and even if some details are the same, it's not as if the rest of the plot is. i wouldn't be the wiser either way since i'm not hip enough to keep up with the popular things these days (i sound like a geezer now).

Date: 2013-07-30 12:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
LOLOL!! Script writing! There's always a silver lining, I guess? =P

I know, you're right. I wish I wasn't such an anxiety-ridden worry wart. I overthink things way too much and forget themes and emotions/attitudes can't be plagiarised anyway. *sigh*

LMAO! If you are a geezer, then I am too! I'm not hip enough to keep up with all the new stuff either. I only heard about it because I kept seeing people posting pictures on facebook and I started recognising the character faces. Then ...curiosity killed the cat. XD

Date: 2013-07-29 03:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hujanbiru.livejournal.com
Whooaaahhh..love the banner..sounds interesting fic..can't wait for the new fic after read your post^^

Date: 2013-07-30 12:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
Yay! Thank you very much.

I hope you like it too now! ^_^

Date: 2013-07-29 04:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dongwook.livejournal.com
You're super awesome. :] I look forward to your new fic~ <3

Date: 2013-07-30 12:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
Aww! I hope that's the case... ^^;;

Oh good! Then I hope you like it. <3

Date: 2013-07-29 09:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jaan30.livejournal.com
I'm sure your new fic will be awesome. Great minds think alike, right? Don't worry about it. Can't wait to see what it's about.^^

Date: 2013-07-30 12:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
haha! This is true. The world is so small... *shakes head in wonder*

I'll try not to worry! Thank you so much. <3

Hopefully you'll like it.

Date: 2013-07-29 09:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blu-eyezz.livejournal.com
You are just a genius,thats all ;) ♥

Date: 2013-07-30 12:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
HAHAH! If you say so. =P

Date: 2013-07-30 08:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] daemoncas5.livejournal.com
HEYA! didnot dabbled in this fsndom for quite some time :now ( my life now full of H/D and MERLIN (which i appreciate your Arthur mood icon) and SUPERNATURAL hah...

but still YAY FOR NEW FIC \o/ ♥ \o/

Date: 2013-07-30 12:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
I know the feeling! I've only been reading YJ fics by two authors these days. I just fell so in love in Merlin! Or more specifically: MERTHUR! *sounds of angels singing* But for some reason the only fics I ever want to write are YunJae. ^^;;

I have heard all about Supernatural shipping hehe. The two brothers, right? ^^ Pardon my ignorance though but what is H/D?

YAY for new fic indeed!

Date: 2013-07-31 08:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] daemoncas5.livejournal.com
MERTHUR FTW! And YAY for Colin's cheekbones ! (and Bradley pretty face!) haha

Yes yes SUPERNATURAL. I shipped wincest (dean/sam) first but lately i'm all over dean/castiel (yknow, the angel). it felt all kind of blasphemous, but hey, SPN is blasphemous xp YAY BLASPHEMY \o/

H/D is Harry Potter/Draco Malfoy darling, im kind of amazed that Drarry is still going storng. until now. It's my second fandomous obsession after yunjae ♥
Edited Date: 2013-07-31 08:35 am (UTC)

Date: 2013-07-31 12:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
Please, please, please don't get me started on Merthur. Bradley came to a convention in my country recently and we asked him how Arthur felt in this or that scene and he always said the niiiiicest things about Colin, and GOD the feels.

Colin's magic cheekbones are something else, aren't they! *_*

Wincest hahahh that's it! Fan names are so creative. XD I should really try watching that someday~

AHH Drarry! Of couuuurse. Silly me. That is so awesome that that ship is still thriving. Good for you guys!

Date: 2013-07-31 01:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] daemoncas5.livejournal.com

wasnt it where the harlem shake happened? i saw the youtube vid. AND BRADDERS INFAMOUS SUNGLASSES.

and dont forget collins lips! *o* i saw the clips of his lips smoking cig on Parked and whew...lipgasm xp

haha i dare you to sample Wincest! all the incestous feels :DDD

Yeah drarry is awesome and would be forever awesome!♥

Date: 2013-08-02 12:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
I think Colin's EVERYTHING is just magical. You just want to hug that precious boy!

Yessss the Harlem Shake!! You saw it? XD But that was the one they did on the complete opposite side of the country. It looked like so much fun. Bradley should never dance. Ever. hahah so dorky, I love it.

I've never been able to fathom finding incest enticing but that pairing is super popular so who knows!

Date: 2013-07-30 11:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jadyuu.livejournal.com
Goood a new storyyyyyy from Fiiiii !!!!!*going crazy* yeah thats the first thing I thought. You know how I worship you, and your beautiful writing style and your crazy imagination. I'm so glad ! Seriously I should take a picture of EOD I ordered on lulu a few years ago just so you see. The book looks like a hundred years old, I read it too much xD ( if one day you decide to go on trip to Paris, tell me, now I just need you to sign the book ! XD)

Anyway, I understand why you worry, and I have to say it's a lot of coincidences xD but I don't worry for you because I know how amazing you are and I'm sure your story will be awesome and so "Fionesk" that I will not be able to breathe while reading a chapter \o/ god I cant wait.

Date: 2013-07-30 12:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
HAHAH!! Oh Jade, you always make me smile. Yeh, I know, I am such a plagiariser, right! XD

I actually really want to visit England and France, so the family were thinking of doing so in 2015 (beggers can't be choosers). If that ever happens you know I am going to be begging to meet you in person! You pretty little thing! <3

Aw man, you have so much faith and I hope I live up to it~ T__T *hug*


Date: 2013-07-30 03:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jadyuu.livejournal.com
Yeees if you come to Paris, tell me ! We'll have some coffee in a very parisian way and I'll show you around ;D it's always nice to walk in Pris when you know your way so you dont have to take the subway -^^-

Date: 2013-07-31 03:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
Sounds ammmmazzzzinnng! Stop itttt. I want to go right now!! My bro is so lucky, he's been there a few times now. T_T

Yeh, walking sounds awesome. You can see more sights! It helps if you have a very awesome local to help you navigate. GAH this has to happen!

Date: 2013-07-31 06:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] uw1m4.livejournal.com
always..always excited to read your post ^.^
and a new story to come ... ^.^ <-- another smile
*waiting patiently...

Date: 2013-07-31 12:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
Aww, thank you! <3

Date: 2013-08-01 01:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jj-luver.livejournal.com
*gives you a hug*
Can't wait for the new fic! I have no doubt it's going to be GREAT! :D

Date: 2013-08-02 12:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
*hugs back*

Oh cool! Hope it is! lolll

Date: 2013-08-01 01:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hana-kiree.livejournal.com
I swear bb, those things happen even to the non-writer me. I guess that's how 'dejavu' became a word in the first place. They are so many people on this planet, we cannot not be thinking of the same things, right? It's just the matter of who claims them first. So, no worries at all, and keep on writing ^^

Date: 2013-08-02 12:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wild-terrain.livejournal.com
Yeh that is very true.

Thank you for that! <3
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